Cracks In The Crystal Ball

sudah terpindah :)

2011-12-06T01:56:00.000-08:00

new me, new life... tata the world of sadness..bubye my bloggy b!! gona miss ya.
hello to new New Day!
Freak Freak to the Beat!!!

xoxo,
erwina

the harder you fall, the higher you bounce

2011-11-28T23:20:00.000-08:00

“Tidak ada sesuatu musibah yang menimpa (seseorang), kecuali dengan izin Allah; dan barang siapa beriman kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu”. – at-Tagabun : 11

“(Yaitu) orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah mereka berkata “Sesungguhnya kami milik Allah dan kepadaNyalah kami akan kembali”” – Innalillahi Wa inna Ilaihi Rajiun. –al-Baqarah : 156.

Diri,

Ketahuilah hakikat bahawa segalanya itu adalah ujian bagimu untuk menguji keimananmu…

“Apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan, “kami telah beriman”, dan mereka tidak diuji?” – al-Ankabut :1

Diri,

Sesungguhnya ujian itu sebenarnya dan selayaknya buatmu, hanya dikau yang mampu untuk menempuhinya, walaupun terasa berat olehmu…

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya” – al-Baqarah : 286.

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan (sesuai) dengan apa yang diberikan Allah kepadanya”- at-Talak : 7

Diri,

Apalah ertinya jikalau kau sentiasa bersedih dengan apa yang berlaku terhadapmu…

Bangunlah dikau dan terus berlari dan jangan biarkan dirimu terus lumpuh tak berdaya…

Kau adalah orang yang terkuat dan gagah yang ku temui di dalam pengembaraan ini…

“Dan janganlah kamu berasa lemah, dan jangan (pula) bersedih hati, sebab kamu paling tinggi (darjatnya), jika kamu orang yang beriman” – ali Imran : 139.

Diri,

Jikalau kau berasa kau bersendirian, ketahuilah bahawa kau tidak bersendirian…

Masih ada yang sentiasa mendengar keluh kesahmu…

Janganlah dikau takut dan bersedih hati, kerana DIA sentiasa bersamamu…

“Dan mohonlah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan solat. Dan (solat) itu sungguh berat, kecuali bagi orang yang khusuk” – al-Baqarah : 45

Semoga ayat-ayat ini menjadikan ku seorang yang kuat dalam melangkah, biarpun seringkali jua aku tersungkur…

PUISI CINTA

Kenapa kita menutup mata ketika kita tidur ?
Kenapa kita menutup mata ketika kita menangis ?
Kenapa kita menutup mata ketika kita membayangkan sesuatu ?
Hal hal yang terindah di dunia ini biasanya tidak terlihat

Ada hal hal yang tidak ingin kita lepaskan
dan ada orang orang yang tidak ingin kita tinggalkan

Tapi ingatlah, melepaskan bukan bererti akhir dari dunia

melainkan awal dari kehidupan yang baru

Kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang menangis

Kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang telah tersakiti

Kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang telah mencari dan telah mencuba

Kerana merekalah yang bisa menghargai

Betapa pentingnya orang yang telah menyentuh kehidupan mereka

Cinta adalah ketika kamu menitikkan air mata, tetapi masih peduli terhadapnya

Cinta adalah ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu, kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia

Cinta adalah ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain dan kamu masih bisa tersenyum sambil berkata , " Aku turut berbahagia untukmu "

Apabila cintamu tidak berhasil, bebaskanlah dirimu

Biarkanlah hatimu kembali melebarkan sayapnya dan terbang ke alam bebas lagi

Ingatlah, kamu mungkin menemukan cinta dan kehilangannya. .

Tetapi saat cinta itu dimatikan, kamu tidak perlu mati bersamanya..

~Khalil Gibran~

Love is more than saying I Love You !!

2011-11-10T18:04:00.000-08:00

Requoting from Inspiring Bits;

"In these days lots of couples are getting divorced for silly reasons. It is very easy to say I Love You, I Love You Forever, I Will be With You Forever, I Will Die For You, I Will Care For You etc., etc., Love is more than saying 'I Love You'.

Life is not a matter of Milestones. It is a moment"

Meaning of Love: Where there is trust the will be love. Never try to tested the true love, it is very hard to forget.

....................................................................................................

Hurm.., quite an inspiring article to be written. This goes well to everyone out there who believes in love, and who are sincere in love. Who understand the hardship and real meaning of love. Also mostly to those who are dedicated in love. Definitely Not to a 'player of love'!!! Because 'they' are so not deserving love. 'They' don't know the real meaning of true love is, they can't differentiate the good and the bad, to whom they have hurt before, and they can't recognized the beautiful things they have in front of their eyes, whom that they have neglected. And very soon one day, their world will also collapsed and shattered into pieces, and only then they will realized the sorrow, and start pondering through what they have done and may have lost a lot along the way. But by that day, It is Too Too Late for them to take it all back. They could just live and let live in regrets. Don't go too far deep dear man.. please don't go there..

Salam, xoxo, erwina
When live give you a thousand reasons to cry, Show the world that...,
You have millions to smile.." :)

MODE : Here we go again... :)

2011-11-09T00:39:00.000-08:00

:: design :: comfort :: performance ::

2011-11-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

A
LESSON 101
Physical Prototyping Stages
- A lowbike ride, The sexy chopper
Tutor : Mr. A.Kumar (Mechanical Engineer grads from University of Liverpool.. "who I may shout out loud as, A TOTAL NUTCRACKER..LOL.. u sure talk the talk...and sometimes quite a lot! but hey we just getting started)

Lesson # 01 - Getting started. Note to self "Do it after 5pm.. (time at work is a NO NO)"
Lesson # 02 - Readthrough SolidWorks Chopper Tutorial
Lesson # 03 - Checkouts blogs
Lesson # 04 - Go wild

(this is not mine at all, but this is just the way how i loved it).

The day that changes everything… my whole spectrum of view

2011-11-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

# Some time in sad day of LAST SEPTEMBER…

I was soon found myself judging everything from that very moment - In the love business. That one last phone call with him, it finally triggered me sense and sensibility ~ One word, “LIAR!”… Happily I was, just the day before, for it was still love for me and him, like normal people do… phrasing day by day...“catch you later tonite, muaxx muaxx, miss you, love u much, take care, have a safe ride, salam..” and then unfortunately…all of the sudden, something worst than ever came to my knowledge… WOW! That was it!!!! Dead END! Unbelievable! STRIKE THREE, and you’re out! I have had it, it was enough for me… Muak with all of his lies throughout these years. Finally my heart just given up (not literally tho’, so to speak). It is always all about him.. Finally Man, finally… how relentlessly tired it was, struggling, anticipate, waiting, hoping all these years, trusting, supporting dearly, fights, forgiving, make ups, endearing love, arguments, forgiving again, building up wall of trust again.. and finally damn it again.. TWO THUMBS DOWN.., for putting my head and hopes up so very high, for so long, for what?? Asking to myself in regret... For the things he wishes, promised and says he would do, for that he would change for the better? Has he? Never!! For time and time again.. he did something else.. Manis mulut saja.. Shockingly!! So indeed shockingly.. Until the end, it all comes down to all for nothing.. Nothing at all.. Wasted feelings, Crap.. It was all crap. Rubbish, BULLshit, big fat liar... and yes so many words and more can described the actual feeling one can carry. But the most heartfelt it was to me when this time it was full with mere sadness and hatred very-very deep inside. “From powerful sincere love to loathe”. Betrayal after betrayal... One just could no longer have a bigger heart to ever forgive and forget... Oh no, not again. Never! Why lah… Shit, shit, shit.. (sorry.., Astragfirullahazim) Why oh why, the very one you loved, becomes the one who makes you wanna cry???? Received few packs at the back from close friends and emails, saying, “dear girl, I know you well, move on, you’re tough enough, he’s so not deserving.. I’am also his ex’s this and that, I’ve told you so.. he will get his payback soon enough, take this anger and turn it into new dedication and will power in future undertakings, pheww, many more..” thank you all, some are harsh and hard tho’ but yet – I have read it, clearly understood it well, and I am a believer now..!. – Truthfully, I did move on… I have give him away. It is the hardest thing to do, but the best. Hell will I ever look back, hell will I ever respect him again. But even from deepest love to hate, I wish u have all the things that your heart desire. I wish you happy.. What more you want in your life, may you have it! If you wanna remarry again, please please please do it right. Never ever hurt and played anyone’s heart ever again. Am begging you please. Stop the cruelty to women, to your loving wife and your kids most specially. For me, simple, you had played me enough all these years, for sure I think you are bored of me (therefore u did all that to me) and so therefore again, am begging you never ever hurt me again. I’ll brush you out of my life, by having this big faith that I am better than all the things you said about me. I know the truth, and you’re not worthy enough for me. And forever you will never be. Am better off without you. But because I have loved you, I wish you well. End.

(Wow masih marahnya i? ahaha, not really. bygone should be bygone. nak buat macamana kan, liku kehidupan.. I masih berpegang pada cinta, kasih dan percaya. I cuma berdoa, jgnlah perkara ini terjadi pada insan lain, tak sanggup babe. Altho’, what goes around comes around, serpihan notty I dahulu mungkin..penghapus dosa.. at least jahil I yang satu itu, dapat merubah I kini and sedar di usia muda. And I am so ready to love someone like RAY!!!! Hehe.. seriouslylah.. I am ready, but sgt takut je.. Ray.., he is so different! Adored him dari jauh, hehe :) So anyhow.. back to business, ini hanyalah my last Confession of a broken heart_again_just to remind and be reminded_once again. I have had enough, and also for my sister who is if in reading… am not still in love with him, am up to a new chapter insyaallah”. I am forever will be sad for who he is in real, but yet I will be happy for him. That is all, sincerely that is all that I have left for him. In the end, I wish him well)

Oh ya, why today me typed this one out.. cos am having feverish kowt.. feeling a little mellow, I guess, who knows..

P.s: I did moved on actually.. At my recent office event, I performed Warwick Avenue by Duffy. Yuhoo… Erwina sings again.. I meant it while singing this time… and NO I did not cry.. At first, I practiced for my fav “Bohemian Rhapsody” but the minus one we had was awful.. so nope, reject.. Next I was thing of doing Adele “Someone like you – but I do not want someone like “you” no more” SO REJECT.. ahahhaa.. and lastly Warwick Avenue fits me perfectly.. It actually gave me the will power that I longed for. It tells my story. I feel to sing it.. And the for the finale, I did a duet with my lil sista here (friendly banter – 1 tahun muda jer, ahaha) – Cik Mia… she was pushing me actually,.. We did it in the end, sing our heart out “When you believe, Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey… “hampeh mia, I did Mariah” jenuh mak jerit.. ahhaha.. but overall, beautiful! :) love the memory, waiting for the video now from the german videographer.. yikes.. hope it is good in playback! Anyhow, thank you for the standing ovation.. best colleague and group of people ever.. love ya’ll xoxo.

Hey now, that is it. Salam.

Erwina FaceLift!

//Break-Away.. Fix You//

2011-10-05T01:15:00.000-07:00

"Fix You" - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face

And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face

And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Iqram Dinzly Birthday Bash, 8:30pm @ PNB Darby Park

2011-09-30T03:28:00.000-07:00

IQ's now entering the 3 Series.. hehe :)

Anyhow, to my dearest cebok, from the bottom of my heart and deepest love, am wishing you A blessed Birthday by Dear Allah SWT, Wishing you all the best in the year to come. May your days be filled with sunshine and beautiful colors. And may your nights be filled with comforting dreams and wishes to come. Love you much. And may you berjumpa dgn jodoh you yang terbaik soon.

Thank you for inviting us for your birthday bash last night, 29th Sept 2011 @ PNB Darby Park. Me, Mama, Sista and Lil Adam loves you so very much. Hope you loved the Watch we gave. Miss you more now.. xoxo!

Slash and Adam Levine Perform Their Song 'Gotten'

2011-09-28T17:01:00.000-07:00

So nice to see your face again
Tell me how long has it been
Since you’ve been here
(since you’ve been here)
You look so different than before
You’re still the person I adore
Frozen with fear
All out of love but I take it from the past
All out of words cause I’m sure it’ll never last

I’ve been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I’m not sure
I can’t save you if you don’t let me
You just get me like I’ve never been gotten before

Maybe it’s a bitter wind
That chilled from the pacific rim
That brought you this way
(brought you my way)
Do not make me think of him
The way he touched your fragile skin
That haunts me every day
I’m out of love but I can’t forget the past
I’m out of words but I’m sure it’ll never last

I’ve been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I’m not sure
I can’t save you if you don’t let me
You just get me like I’ve never been gotten before
Like I’ve never been gotten before

Slash Solo

So nice to see your face again
But tell me will this ever end
Don’t disappear

I’ve been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I’m not sure
And I can’t save you if you don’t let me
You just get me like I’ve never been gotten before
Like I’ve never been gotten before

Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven (Live Earls Court 1975)

2011-09-26T02:27:00.000-07:00

" Thanks to Zakhiri, for reminding me of this amazing song!
Thanks babe! "

"Stairway To Heaven"

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying the stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying the stairway to heaven.

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who stand looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying the stairway to heaven.

Photoblog Aidilfitri 2011

2011-09-03T19:41:00.000-07:00

Dari Kelumpo Ke
Teluk Chempedak Kuantan,
Ke Awana Kijal Terengganu

We're just another ordinary family

2011-09-03T08:40:00.000-07:00

" Ini baru intronya saja.. kalau sudi singgah lagi ke sini, tunggu ya for my Part II photo journey - Aidilfitri 2011 - DARI Kelumpo KE Teluk Cempedak Kuantan, KE Awana Kijal Terengganu... " :) Sekali lagi, ikhlas dari diri ini, Salam Aidilfitri buat semua. Segala kekhilafan mohon diampuni. Assalamualaikum.

Colmar Tropicale : Medieval French village and Picturesque surroundings

2011-08-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

Picture speaks a thousand words..

Hope mine do too..

All i want is to getaway from the rush of everyday busy life..

All I asked for is to find Greenery, Peace and Tranquility,

I think I have found it there...

With taking my beloved family up the hill with me...

Even while busy fasting in beautiful ramadhan.. :)
Embracing the fresh air..., I am truly blessed with the time, health & opportunity, enjoying the simple fact of where i was .

" the lush greenery is something I have been craving for a long time, and my camera does too :) Enjoy sneakpeek photos and hundred more on myFB if you like "

with love,

Erwina XOXO

Seafood @ Tanjung Harapan... yummy

2011-07-31T07:33:00.000-07:00

Salam, wanted to post pictures on this one first, but came to a shock earlier, when saddened news came to my knowledge last nite. Still, at heart.., RIP Datuk Syed.

...anyhow, Last Saturday, us one family manage to go to Port Klang, and grab us all a nice seafood dinner. The food there was actually really good, Adam's first seafood ever!! and he liked it.. ate quite a lot if i would say, crabby, prawn and jenahak... My Bil is back from work now for this ramadhan and maybe for the first two raya.. was so nice to be enjoying yesterday's dinner just before Ramadhan with having him around! Actually, kami pergi ini pun x plan.., was on our way back frm Subang, then i just blurted out, jom ke Klang..? and so we did! Eventhough my BIL, kakak, and mama did ate some nice LaLa at Kemaman last Wednesday while picking up my BIL kt sana..., but they say it is never the same without me around! hehe, FAMILY, very touching indeed!! :)

...yup yup i was left behind, was rather too busy like everyday H to the ELL busy last week, balik rumah jer too too tired to think of anything else, i can't take dat day leave bcos my SD is in Indonesia., and MD went back to Germany... And so on that day my family left for kemaman without me, and i was also meeting up with My Pakistani fren tht nite too. This time with the company of his beautiful wife! Gulp! :) and their two little princess, which is now my anak angkat... tow cute Zara showing her broken teeth to me. :) it was great meeting them, we had a blast shopping @ Petaling Street that nite. and They're off to Karachi now, got yasir's message last was this afternoon. awaiting, for their next text of Safe Landing... Missed them oledy.. Insyallah, Yasir will be coming back for our new office opening in Rawang this September. And yes you too take care, and hope we meet will again babe! :)

Okie dokie, that is all i have for now... Selamat Berpuasa semua... Sampai Ketemu, jangan nakal-nakal! Seriously I mean it buster... Jumpa di Syawal. P/S: Yippie, raya ini cuti saya dah diluluskan.. Cdgan awal nk ke Langkawi, but i am too too tired lately, saya hanya nk bercuti ke Colmar, wanna rest up there!! Harap masih ada vacancy! Mama cepat buat booking esok...

~ baiklah.. tammat for now.. enjoy the picas...

xoxo erwina

Perginya Seorang Seniman Negara Tersohor..

2011-07-30T21:02:00.000-07:00

Innalillah hi wa innailaihirojiun, Seniman Negara ulung., father of Modern Art Malaysia, Datuk Syed Ahmad Jamal, 83, telahpun kembali ke rahmatullah malam semalam. Moga jenazahnya selamat dikuburkan, dan mohon Allah ampuni dosanya dan moga beliau akan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yg beriman. Al-fatihah.

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيم

الْحَمْدُ للّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِين

الرَّحمـنِ الرَّحِيم

مَـالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّين

إِيَّاك نَعْبُدُ وإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِين

اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ

صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنعَمتَ عَلَيهِمْ غَيرِ المَغضُوبِ عَلَيهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّين

Amin.

TAKZIAH buat Datin dan keluarga.

Sebagai Idolaku, a father figure..., a little too sad diri ini untuk melangkah ke kubur, untuk berada bersama keluarga RA dan keluarga Datin, insyallah akan disedekahkan fatihah dalam ibadahku nanti.

" Wahai Tuhan kami! Ampunkanlah dosa kami dan dosa saudara-saudara kami yang mendahului kami dalam iman dan janganlah Engkau jadikan dalam hati kami perasaan hasad dengki dan dendam terhadap orang-orang yang beriman. Wahai Tuhan kami! Sesungguhnya Engkau Amat Melimpah Belas Kasihan dan RahmatMu. "

Robbigh fir lil muslimin wal muslimat

Mukminin wal mukminat
al ahyaa'i min hum wal amwat

Datuk Syed - One who touches millions heart; samada artist, pekerja seni atau sekadar pencinta seni. ONE who throughout the journey shared knowlegeable advices, ONE who shows kindess and humility, ONE who shared his quirkiness and laughter with us ALL.

ONE who truly be missed !

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^^^ Dan ingin juga saya mengambil kesempatan ini untuk mengucapkan kepada semua umat Islam yang masih meruskan kehidupan dan kewajipan kita sebagai hamba ilahi di dunia Allah SWT, saya memohon keampunan dan kemaafan atas segala khilafku, moga keimanan di ramadhan kali ini lebih meningkat, lebih suci dan bersih dan penuh makna. Salam Ramadhan buat semua. xoxo, erwina

He is more than a leading figure in Malaysian Modern Art --- An idol, a father figure

2011-07-25T06:19:00.000-07:00

Lewat malam semalam terasa syahdu, tersentak jiwa mendapat sms rakan seperjuangan dahulu... kabar dari jauh yg boleh membuatkan hati ini terasa sungguh hiba dan terkilan, apatah lagi apabila dikabarkan keadaan seseorang yg pernah memberi kesan besar dalam perjalanan seniku dahulu kini semakin uzur. Terasa yg amat rindu apabila diberitahu bhw beliau turut bertanyakan perihal diri ini...... How i wish i could visit him right now, and wishing that he would be up & fit again, kembali sihat soon, and most importantly smiling back at me and say something funny straight to my face once again. Selalunye dahulu, kalau berjumpa sahaja he would always say that am too talkative out of the bunch.. but hello? look who's talking juge, am only competing with you Datuk...!! ahaha :) Walhalnya, i selalu byk ckp cos datuk selalu potong cakap! ahahahaha.. am just kidding.

Oh dear god, reminiscing back of those days with SAJ together with RA family does making me smile right now... it was indeed one of the good old days, and Datuk himself is such a funny man... a real Joker if I would say! :) Deep down i knew from the text tht i received, the rest of RA family rite now must be feeling totally sad. And dear Datin, i really hope she is doing major strong.

I will sampaikan doa to dear Allah, and i wish that us all will help pray and perpanjangkan sedekah dan fatihah buat beliau. moga datuk syed ahmad jamal diperpanjangkan umurnya, insyaallah.

" truthfully, am not yet ready to be missing my idol! "

oh sunday..,

2011-07-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

Tired, tired, tired, tired, tired, tiredddd.....

huhu, that was my moto for each of my days lately! Was so very busy last couple of weeks, busy schedules working straight Mon-Sun, and will be looking into more & more strict deadlines this Fasting time as well.. all is oHH so very mind & physically challenging and scary! therefore, I promised to myself that whatever coming down pun this week, i dah nekad to not thinking much about work.. well, I tried very hard actually, tp kejap2 masih ada juge terselit thoughts / plan A plan B of how to settle cases file yg sentiasa meninggi di meja i... i guess, besides my family and best colleagues Kamarul, Zan, Zul, there's also another one person in this world yg knows about my tiredness and how extra busy i am, yg maybe juge as busy as dirinye...hope he's taking everything better than i am, and not being notty elsewhere!! ahaha, kidding! :p Anyhow Dearie, rasanya NOT THAT FUN DAH MANAGING ALONE! :( too penat, maybe am not that SUPERWOMAN as u said i am! Sorry, penat sgt lah lately... But I know keje tetap keje.. lagipun, Abah kata pada semua dlm meeting jumaat lepas, dia nak naikkan pangkat I lagi. Balik hari itu, i told my mum and sista, of course lah sgt happy when dgr naik pangkat tengah tahun ni, insyallah ada rezeki naik gaji mungkin, mmg bersyukur sgt tapi, i also know that.. my work and responsibilities tu akan makin bertambah-tambah lah juga. And i am a little semakin cookoo memfulfil both position, design and coordinating sorang2 rite now!!!! yikes..!

Hurm.. Anyhow.. pembalasannye.. i took my rehat time minggu ini to the MAX. Indulging myself with entertainment and social life. Jgn risau dear, sy tak buat apa2 pun yg patut dirisaukan ok! Am doing just fine, I THINK! ahahhahaa :) opps, sorry!

Today pula, spentime bersama my beloved family.. This morning, urm.. tak larat me nak ke IOI Mall, the place where me mum and kakak loves to go.. besides The Curve and OneU lah kan... so we decided, to go to Summit instead.. so oklah layan.. takde mende dah kat Summit kan? like dead mall je. Altho' thank god masih ada food yg sedap, i wanted to ajak my family try out makan ayam penyek there, my most fav food skg ni, setiap minggu aje, mesti ada one day me, zan, kamarul, and Z makan kat Ayam Penyek curve! dah jadi harus routine dah for us! :) am so in love with the pedas and kicap!!!! and i also learned how to makan tempeyek! :) tp since my family bukan jenis yg makan makanan pelik2, we ate lah kat Mandy's. Very nice jugak juge the food there. Then, My sist singgah babyland (apa agik????) more things... and i got to wash and vacuum me car there, not kat babyland lah of course, kat wash and wax ler.. come to think of it.. i did had a gud morning today kan? Alhamdulillah..

Sepulang aje, terus menerkam remote baru and melayan diri with our new...

ASTO B.YOND, EXPERIENCE TV LIKE NEVER BEFORE...

Ahaha, org lain dah lama ada.. kita baru nk ada.. oklah tu! Ni semua sebab geram sesgt UNI5 tak masuk masuk lg kat area ladang kelapa sawit rumah i nie... nk wat video porn kekadang pun x dapat.. ahahaha... :p AM JUST KIDDING, alah, apa salahnye kan, add a little stoopid joke once a while, saje je nak kasi heart attack to my pembaca! kalau adalah. anyhow, jom serious balik, So, best jugaklah much much more channels to watch now! and sampai after zuhur ajer, me terus terlelap bawah air-cond, syoknye leboh di tengahari ahad. lama bebenor dah tak buat hal tidur siang. all this just before I received a text from Liza.. HEHE, sorry dh ngantuk sgt tadi.. Maafin juge ya ibu liza, gak dapat hadir semalam, hope semuanya baik2 and happening aje for u guys! insyallah lain kali sy singgah kalau ada jemputan lagi and kelapangan masa. "Mak libur semalam nok" :) Lagipun, artwork kat rumah kau semua aku dah tengok pun kan! Wahahaha..bukan ke itu tema BBQ at ur hse yesterday? ahaks.. anyhow love ya liza.

NOTA KAKI:

(foot note yg tak berasas ni cos tak link up langsung dgn catitan atas :) wow, i am too stressed it seems :p)

COMMERCIAL LAGI LAGI BEST!

Dear God unbelievable... and so we meet again! That is my very first crush we're talking about.. MR EDDY BUNNY! U know the guy who's wearing a cap appearing dancing in the middle frame of the commercial MyVi tu. Introducing Eddy Ipoh! Ex-scooterist Ipoh Taman Anda, Ohh, still so very cute looking! and GUESS WHAT.. OMG, last week @ food court Padang Kota lak, we bumped into each other! What a small world! Eating lunch. this is so FREAKINGLY AWKWARD MOMENT. boleh tak??? after our last meeting in early 2005 kat WATA TIME One Utama.. masih kowt dgn dimple di pipi.. :) Yikes! anyhow, that was that, end of story. Shhhh! x mo ckp byk.. enjoy the commercial, our little ADAM sure did! Everytime, standing up menari to the advert song... Lagi best wo o o...

Menyibuk di bilik ibu, chillin...

Love Erwina, XOXO

"From the People to the People" Is that right?

2011-07-10T05:14:00.000-07:00

"Bersih" Tidak Sebersih Namanya. A Walk for Democracy or An Act Of Selfishness? We are all civilised and grown up people, You Decide!

From the look of it, the hassle, the trouble, the gossip, the tweets, the violent, the damages, the losses, the brought-down reputation from the eye of the outsider, and even the inside citizens.... I believe that there are no Winners here, only Losers! I felt more and more sorry, dissapointed and disgusted for the opposition leader. We can't 'CLEAN' people like a vacuum...a days work, so u think! forget all that..there are better ways to approach. I've been wondering high and lows of what they would get in the end? Will they achieved what their heart desire? Whatever the reason is, wouldn't it be better if each and all of you, same like me, same like the rest of all of us sane human, Clean up our own act. But yet again...the initial reason for this rally is A WALK FOR DEMOCRACY..you guys have shout it OUT LOUD.. therefore, for whatever your clear reason is, i strongly really hope that it is better be good, in order for all of you to answer back when you were asked again, in the biggest court of your life, tika akhirnya zaman nanti. I hope you guys win in both world!!!! Amin.

All though from my point of view, and speaking for the rest of us not A FAN citizens, there are more losses here than gainers. Bersih tidak sebersih namanya it seems.

This is such tiring news these cat and dogs political actions.
Bussiness as you can see were shut down tremendously.
For many families, quality times outside together were on hold.
Beautiful weddings were interrupted.
Tourist were scared of this shit and their travelling activities were cancelled, merely even wasn't allowed to leave their hotel room. Darn!
The walk only ended with arrests made by police. And talking about police, an army of polices, with their road blocks leading towards tremendous bad traffic at all corners of KL and highways leading into the city centre, unbelievable i would say. Although they've done a great job, keeping the safety at sight, still the traffic was horrific!!! Imagine, an ambulance rushing through? Human life at stake.., No win there rite?
I myself was a little dissapointed..., Previous group plan to go fishing and big feast barbQ at Kuala Selangor yesterday were postponed to some otha time... *sighs*! afraid of the jam of course, and takut dikata perhimpunan haram pula grup kami, hehe..! :p wishing so badly of going to work instead yesterday also pun x jadi... I dunno about the rest of the people out there. But for me as a single young woman, i seriously do not know what to aspect out there, in these act of people, it could encourages the unstability of other people to causing danger and harm people. I know that i've watched too much Criminal Minds, but this who knows rite, tis could just happen okay? When the police, FRU is busy holding the fort in town, who's holding the fort for us?
Besides, People from the walk were suffering bruises and cut legs. Is that cool and manly enough for all of you there?
Last from me aiyaiyai, for i heard there would be another rally coming up.. please i hope not! A fren of mine from Pakistan coming to town, planning for Redang, Bukit Bintang, Sunway Lagoon and Genting. Even though he might have experienced this in his country a LOT more, but Just please...for my on sake, may this not so Bersih rally not happen again!

* Sigh *

WIN

she's back.... !!! danger.

2011-06-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

* Note to self ~ you're always being nice, in which you shudn't! you should watch ur back now. Esp for special cases, u shudn't hafto be nice.. cos u would never know.. it shall never be good enough...or will it be? can people really change? evil never is.., human nature! Gasp! Aiyaiyai.. so help me Allah, tawakkal-tu-alal-ullah, as she's back! I could only wish that i could carry the weight of this heavy world.. i really wish so...

“Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavement, even if it leads nowhere.”

Driving around Sg.Buloh-Rawang

2011-06-19T02:28:00.000-07:00

....Jalan-jalan cari rumah!! Eyeing for new micasa.., walaupun muka penat, was so happy yesterday, n sempat juge click2... Doakan me yea ada rezeki rumah baru, dengan harapan me dpt beli moto baru juge ASAP.. uiks, ahhahaa, kena solat duha lebih lagi ni.. hehe. :)

Japan Earthquake and Tsunami Relief Efforts - The IKA® Family‘s Contribution

2011-06-03T17:53:00.000-07:00

Press release

Japan Earthquake and Tsunami Relief Efforts - The IKA® Family‘s Contribution Petaling Jaya, Selangor, May 16, 2011 – IKA® Works (Asia) Sdn Bhd announced that it is contributing EUR 20,000 to the Malaysian Red Crescent for the JAPAN EARTHQUAKE AND TSUNAMI FUND to assist in providing medical care and relief assistance to the people of Japan following the March 11th 2011 earthquake and tsunami.

IKA® Works Asia is a wholly owned subsidiary of IKA Werke Gmbh & Co. KG, a world renowned designer and manufacturer of laboratory, analytical and industrial process equipment. IKA® Works Asia, established in Malaysia 1995, is actively engaging in the research & development, manufacturing and distribution of a comprehensive range of laboratory and industrial processing equipment and systems. Our company jointly with our representatives and clients engages actively in the challenge of finding solutions and developing a cost effective parts and equipments to meet the diverse laboratory and processing requirements globally.

In the spirit of solidarity of the IKA® family as represented by the subsidiaries in the U.S.A, China, Malaysia, India and Japan, the IKA® Group will make a total of EUR 120,000 contribution as announced by Mr. René Stiegelmann, (President of the IKA® Group) at its headquarter in Staufen, Germany, on Thursday, April 28th. The donation will support the Japanese Red Crescent in the affected regions in providing aids in one of the most difficult times in Japan history.

In keeping with the above, intended purpose, Mr. Sunil Kraemer (Managing Director, IKA® Works (Asia) Sdn. Bhd) will, on Thursday, June 2nd, 2011, hand over a cheque for EUR 20,000 to the Secretary General of Malaysian Red Crescent, Datuk Dr. Haji Noordin bin Haji Ab. Razak. The members of the press are invited to witness this event.

About IKA® (www.ika.com) The IKA® group is the worldwide leader in lab, analysis and process technology. The product portfolio of the lab and analysis technology consists of magnetic stirrers, stirrers, dispersers, mills, rotary evaporators, calorimeters, lab reactors and shakers while the process technology develops and markets solutions for stirring, mixing and kneading applications. The company headquarters are in Staufen im Breisgau. IKA® is a global player and has subsidiaries in the U.S., China, India, Malaysia and Japan. In 2010, the owner-managed company with its 650 employees brought in 85 million euros. Founded in 1910, IKA-Werke can now look back on more than 100 years of company history.

*phew - my one women show - at d very beginning, at every corner.., dari mula menulis press release, jemputan, menelefon VIP sehingga menutup pintu kereta VIP"... when he thinks i can do it, he knew i will do it! that is my Mr. Kraemer." Anyhow, bersyukur that majlis contribution ini berjalan dengan jayanye dan berlangsung sudah, syukur ke hadrat ilahi kerna memberkati majlis, pada Datuk Dr. Haji Noordin & Sean yg cool from MRCS, oh dan juge kepada driver datuk yang pakai IPAD jer tangkap gambar... hamboi2.. driver tuh... biar betik.. tp abang tu baik sgt! hehe... thank you oh so very much yg x terhingga juga to Datuk for attending and accepting the invitation, and many thanks to NSTP, Berita Harian, Harian Metro and Tamil Newpaper for witnessing and membuat liputan. it sure ain't easy to make this happen, dgn hanya dibekalkan dgn 5 hari sahaja for everything. Lelah aku Lelah.. Yet, alhamdulillah, selesai. Now kembali kepada kerja lain yang makin mencabar. I have to say, they gave me this job, put me into this level..for a reeason, a purpose...but sgt susah bagi diri ini nak bersilat to be EXCELLENTE all the time, mmg suruh i kerah otak and work my best effort to the MAXXIMUUM! i felt like crying while in the car, driving back from work sometimes, but then i layan jerit and nanyi, i felt like dissapear kejap once a while, but....bila I did make things happen, perasaan nye itu.. WOW tak tehingga...nothing can top that one out! Esp, i really love my job and the people.. Professionally brilliant and angkuh and MAHARAJA LAWAK! hahaha.. Maybe, in a way.. they're showing me or tryna telling me, esp the bosses.. that I am good at work. How to express that feeling ey? Nevermind only i know. cos all this while, i always think i'll never be good enough... anyhow, hanya luahan hati dikit disini, insyaallah soon before long, i will take my cuti panjang! :)

Splashes ere and there..

2011-05-21T22:22:00.000-07:00

huhu.., lil' adam with new totoy again! :)

Disebabkan Mommy adam tersangat manjakan anak dia!! again, new pool.. although damn cute, this play pool, siap ada fountain and slides lg.. sedikit hampa, TERKECIK sedikit dr pool yg the first one we bought! ahahaha, all salah Mommy x baca manual betul2, michik tak tau, michik chip in bayo ajer!!! lantak, ayah balik nanti sure bising y terkecik sikit, kunun this time nk beli EXTRA big pool! ahahahaa.. G-ma pun dah pitam, but sia bersalah jugak, masa beli semalam, she agrees into it.. Anyhow, design wise, This pool is cute and mmg fun! :) pendek kata, kita korek buat pool jelah kat laman rumah! ahahaha, susah sgt, ni confirm beli lagi next time nih.. hahahaha! :) ALL for Adam. and as usual, tiap weekend, if am around, kena bk adam spin in his wheel, mommy rajin manjakan anak dia sgt, so michik enjoy the fun shoot some little more!

...the next thing i knew, i was sitting on a hospital bed :(

2011-05-14T00:40:00.000-07:00

Sitting in a hospital bed waiting on the doctor for my first admission results; "yikes, i have infection in my lung, causing to respiratory tract infection. I knew i had it bad this time, for i hardly can move that Thursday night, the headache and fever is killing me. Talks about being tired from work, well as my new responsibilities taking charge in my life, I indeed had spent most of my hours thinking or doing ONLY matters of work. I might have not rest enough these last two months. it does seems that my Monday to Sunday rather was occupied with work and classes. Eventually, akhirnya me collapsed juga. The Doctor says; this infection could happen to anyone, a virus in the air.. from my blood test taken, everything was normal, from my X-Ray, it says lung is healthy.. infected but healthy, and heart is SMALL, but within normal range... ahahhahaha.. "my heart is small" byk sgt sedih kowt, jantungku mengecut jadinye..huh, i think. anyhow, unbearable with my pain that Friday noon, i finally was admitted to room 268 at Damansara Specialist, Taman Tun. My first 20 minutes in jer, terus kena drip water, for I dah tak lalu makan that time, so i need my nutrition to fight the fever.. Well, if you guys were there, you could see that my food served were wasted. i hardly touches it. Then came the next round, after an hour or so... for the highest dosage of antibiotics, dear God, it is so painful.. i almost thought this might be how's the chemothreaphy feels like. Painful drop running through my blood vein. My fever was still as high as it can be. Not going down at all. at this point, my family thinks that i was a GONER. i myself thinks that way, but alhamdulillah, after few nights of fighting and suffering the pain, the fever finally barge running down. After few nights of feeling of vomiting everytime the medicine was infused inside of me, which i had few bottles of medicine for the cure, hardly counts it, too many session. Not to mention few blood tests.

I still remember, the family of IKA came per group visiting me, it was so sweet with the bouquet of flowers and fruit basket; it was lovely seeing faces of my big boss, canny, mayble, martina, murali, zakhiri, raffiee, ariff, fabian, kamarul, zan, mia, fadli and the rest coming to see me, although i was so very sick at that time, i hardly talks to them, neither i could make any joke. But in my heart, i thanked them for their concern and apology guys for my bad news.

Quietly day after another, nothing else i can do beside lying on my hospital bed, while eyes and ears wide open.. awaiting for the nurse to come in to either pass me my tablet medicine or to again change my liquid of medicine throuugh the infusion. For as i said this is what i most scared of, being japped day by day, hours by hours, painful, my vein started to swallen up, massive pain, pocking through my vein, mashaallah, dugaan ilahi. Thank goodness, i had a chance to change room to better at 272, for it is bigger, and more relaxed for is not overcrowded... and my auntie next door, is so helplessly sick, i have become the unattending nurse for her... hehehee.. helping her whenever she sounded like dying, ahhahahaa.. She seem to be really in pain. Sadly huh?

After few days, finally i feel like eating again. Thanks to my beloved mum and sista, who has been day nightly rotating sleeping on the chair while taking care of me, for mostly i was so weak in bed. They have been pure angel to me, i do not how to repay their deeds to me. But deep in heart, i thanked god, for you have given me such a beautiful loving family, for when i'm weak, they have been strong for me.. jadinya, apa lagik, akan saya kerja keras lagi, supaya tiap2 ujung tahun, i dapat bawak satu family bercuti ke luar negara :) tahun ini, rasanya macam nk buat plan to BALI, as i bincangkan dengan mama sepulangnye dari hospital for my follow up checkup td, wow... cantiknya bali.

Ok ok, am still on drugs here, therefore, not much idea to be writing down, now, lil adam pula dah jangkit demam with me, cos hari2 kena usung gi hospital, tian dia. But he is my strength, i cried one time at the hospital bukan sebab sakit, but sebab i missed Adam so badly. Tiap2 malam dok tgk gmbr2 dia yg i post kat my blog and facebook. ahahahah. teruklah michik ni. Asyik rindu chenta hati dia ajer. :(

Anyhow, wut am trying to say is that, i gotta go now, nk rest jap.. monday dah mula kerja balik, yes confirm byk keje tertunggak! aiyaiyai.. :p so guys, keep your health-line good, jaga diri and love urself and love your family, and jom keje keje keje carik duit! ahahahhaa.. :)

salam, xoxo
Erwina

Lil Adam's new Chevrolet! Happy one year old my cute angel!

2011-05-02T03:08:00.000-07:00

Salam,

as of tonite, abg mad saya will officially be One Year Old, dgn hanya dua batang gigi. my lil nephew is looking so damn cute, aduh tak tahan aku everytime melihat anak saudara sendiri, sentiasa ketap gigi! i mean me, i sentiasa ketap gigi nengok dia. In celebrating his birthday tonite..., bukanlah celebrate ape sgt, in showing love towards him and making him happy on his birthday for being such an adorable smart boy --- but yet oh so very NOTTY, ... michik hadiahkan a striking red Chevrolet remote control car on your birthday.. huhu, yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! dari saat bawak balik from kedai ajer, adam asyik tak sabar nk masuk dah dlm keta dia. Actually, me, mama and kakak lagi le tak sabar nk put him in his car. Oh ya, Gma adam turut chip in for this gift juga, anything for cucu kesayangan dia ni.. although michik dia ler penyumbang terbesar... hehe!!! tambah beberapa rat je lagi dah boleh beli satu lagi Lense camera michik! :) hiks! tp xpe, it is so worth it... ini hadiah ikhlas from all of us. Bila terfikir masa otw back dari kedai keta adam, wow, mmg kami sgt manjakan adam. br one year old, dia dah dapat keta ni, i do not know lah, later apa pulak gift yg boleh top this one out, hehe!!!

but yg penting, he is so happy with his car, really happy with it, pagi ni je, bangun awal dah sebut vroom vroom, Q untuk bawak dia keluar main agaknye.. at last Gma bagi main kat tepi rumah je, itupun after dipujuk, semalam lg best, main dlm umah aje.. tian adam. at least today better sket, awal pagi adam dh dapat main kat luar.. happy jer him! actually michik dia yg terlebih happy, cos at the same time dpt snap few shots of him in his chevy... huhu! by the way, at this moment, I AM SO IN LOVE WITH MY CAMERA!!! terima kasih ya allah... syukur alhamdulillah, namun, tiada lah simpanan ku untuk tabung moto bulan ini. Oh ya, I was thinking a while untuk ambil a small Mac, untuk mudahkan I travel around with it, but in the end, I satisfied myself with a white small mini hp! wahai Mac book air, anda terlalu cantik untuk dipakai, but not that important for now!! at least now i have two things tht i love, with a price of one... hehe, more or less lah, lebih sket lah dari budget yg ditetapkan pd awalnye... anyhow, I really won't bargain for more now..syukur!

so here yee... a few shots from adam's wild ride... ahahhaa, xde maknenye wild...tepi umah aje... as for Now, we guna remote dulu, lepas ni when dia dah besar sket, dia tekan lah minyak and drive sendiri... tp with our supervision of course! nak mampos, kang tak pasal anak sedara wa, terover ganas laju turun bukit... hehe..

untuk langkah2 keselamatan, blanky fluff-fluff dia ada je diselitkan and a pillow.. kids dun follow tis at home! make sure u mommy is around with ya.. ps: Sassy juge terselit hehe.. :) x pasai2 kan.. huhu.. ciao.. as of tomoro I will be back to my busy life at work...

it has been a while

2011-04-17T01:46:00.000-07:00

Salam all, ...feels like quite a while that I've been gone kan, i mean from here,... if anyone noticed lah, shut down me blog, staying low.. for ONE gud reason; i was away just too very busy working here and there, plus minus carrying the weight of my new job responsibilities, at work my life now seem to be all packed and filled with hectic schedules. Not just tht, hari2 pecahkan otak ni triple the efforts before! Namun saya sgt bersyukur ke hadrat ilahi, alhamdulillah atas rezeki yang Allah bagi. Walaupun pada mulanya.. mashallah, tuhan shj yg tahu, tentangan colleagues lain yg tak mahu kerjasama..ya lah, saya ni dari creative department dan masih agak junior, tiba2 diberi peluang mengendalikan dua division designing dan sales coordination. Saya langkah beberapa org ke tahap ini... Bg sy, i see this as an opportunity, untuk berjaya lebih jauh, kepercayaan big big boss, and i know i must have done something right, along the way and for that i do proud of myself. Tp saya juga sedar, dgn ini maka akan ada pada awalnya, senior yg mengata, saying i wont survived, i tak layak, and many more. I also know that, susahnya nk make a stand yg saya di sini bukan untuk menunjukkan kehebatan sendiri or to show who's the boss, that is so not me...for i am plain me, Am the joker kt mana pun, but when it comes to work, i like to be the best, and i worked my ass off!!! and saya sahut cabaran ini kerna tanggungjawab yg diberikan, untuk gear up the team, work hard untuk hapuskan bad log, and for us to work well and accelerate in the end. Yes, my post is direct under MD & Sales Director, and am before Manager. Wow, post tu nampaknye sedap didengar, tapi. i asked for being Jr.. for in my heart and eyes.. i see this as Byk ruang for me to make mistakes, learn by own mistakes, learn from people and byk ruang juga untuk me perform good. itu sahaja, so lately, i have to say that... Alhamdulillah juga, my stand was heard, people could see who i really am, for i didn't change a bit, am still that erwina.. bertekak dgn corporate manager lain pada mulanya, kemudian, they came to me saying, i did a good job ambil alih, and they're proud of me!.. hati aku ya allah, gembira dan bersyukur ya amat hari itu.. and now seem to be there's better room to work well togther. Altho' mmg pada awalnye, i did once or twice cry out to some hearts, ttg susahnye nk ambil hati kawan untuk bekerjasama! i yang kena buli tau... uhuhu, cos u know me lah, org tak mau buat tak pe, biar i yang buat! :P But lega, pheww bestnya... now that moment has passes me by and am here to do much better each day! talking about making things better, yikes Cik Ruby pun dah bising tu.. "Blogging is not your working sheet dear!!!" I janji nk follow up update my worksheet for meeting esok, tp tak bukak2 lagi semalam ngn hari ini.. semalam sibuk shopping hehe...today sibuk main ngn adam :)

oh ya, reason KEDUA i lay low from blogging, well, i gotta say i was kinna sedih of a cheesy remark made by my EX/close fren/whtever we are to each other bfore, i don't even know! Altho' u know me well, i always think of good of u man, but I guess U did NOt! I heard u saying things about me still being with my other ex? aiyaiyai.. ape nih? and remark ambik laki org lain pulak? tak baik tau.. mana u dgr semua ni? hurm.. am i that bad to your eyes? So dear ex's, I am not (believe it or not?), i saw u searching urself / ur name in here many times, but let me just be frank, i do miss ya, i miss ur art, U're my most fav artist dari dulu sampai sekarang, but am disappointed with your attitude lately, maybe awak dah hebat, tho' why would you say things? hurm, anyhow.. even that I cared less dah now, actually at first menggangu juge, lama lepas tu, i fikir maybe u tersalah baca sumwhere in here.., i dunno wut happened? But one thing u shud know... am here.. human, busy, but still living, better life these days, good health.. but never did i change, my heart, myself in and out is still the same.. U can always call and ask me personally? rather thn u know, berckp burok.. hurm, say things to one another to another! Alemak, kuciwa gue with u.

Tp, as usual myself, i forgive ya...disappointed but i forgive & forget! therefore ...SPREAD LOVE to ya! Akhir kata, dear Encik dari Johor, saya masih single, di sini dan despite my heartbreaking love life dulu, Syukur alhamdulillah saya happy! I think my Ex dgn family dia pun alhamdulillah tersangat happy, dan sehingga ke hari ini, walau apa yg telah terjadi... I always mendoakan them happy. Ada hikmah segalanya; mereka telah kembali bersatu bahagia sekeluarga. Syukur pada ilahi. Tentang hati or diri ini, am slowly recovering from it.. all that matters is that sy tumpang gembira that he's good and happy.! anyhow, dengan ini..., leave me alone on this chapter dear fren. Dah basi dah citer ni.. Phew!!! Peace out on this.

Alright next Chapter!
Am agak terganggu dgn citer "Anu.. dalam Botol." ALtho as promised and support, Boy.., adik dh tgk dah movie awak, tahniah dear Arja Lee, u did good! :) I enjoyed your acting.. p/s: tak sangka yang wan raja tu lak kawan kepada kawan saya now.. ehehe.. small world kan? anyhow, y i said earlier am a little terganggu.. Opps cos ternampak aurat wan raja. sebegitu rupa... nampaklah bentuk 'nonek' dia, kira berdosa tak kita yang melihat? hurm.. and also, perlu ke scene till that extend yg dipertontonkan , atas dasar nk mendidik viewer? but everything else is all good for me, no othe remarks, tahniah raja azmi and Khir rahman.

part yg sentuh hati i bila, watak dina talks about the matter of her heart. for she gave everything... so sad, similar feeling, "why do have to go, u make mistakes, but why do you have to go.." she then lost her heart in tht battle. next, was.. when love suddenly changes.. u didn't aspect watak akan muncul dalam diri insan yg you paling sayangi, watak bila dia benar2 ingin pergi, masa itu hati kita sgt hancur, walau tangisan mana pun, kita yang akan rebah, for dia telah lupa and in the end, all you know dia melangkah pergi dgn janjinya. and you left alone to forgive him, and in sadness you try moving on.. Wow, besar betul rupanya impak citer ni pada i.. touches me heart a bit lah.. anyhow, ini lah life, kisah sebenar kan? kita hanya manusia, dugaan hidup ini terlalu besar, allah sentiasa menduga, kesilapan dulu mungkin membuatkan kita lebih matang, lebih bahagia dan membuatkan kita menjadi insan yg lebih baik dari dulunya... cuma harap, kita harus berharap kita ini bukan tergolong dalam golongan syaitan, harap kita masih dapat diampunkan, salah kecil dan salah besar. amin. kerna "Salah yang paling sukar diampunkan, adalah salah di antara manusia."
So all the best Anu... dalam botol! Altho' remark kawan yg lain, bosannye citer ni.. ehehe! :) sham, ko mmg hampeh. for me, i like the cinematography & arahan, love kak ogy sebenarnye! :)

aite, hurm after a while, byk betul writing in one go.. yelah because i'll be away again. Bulan 5 ada shanghai Expo.. insyaallah ke sana.. keje maish byk di office. Next week pun pack work and classes. 24/7 busy, malam mungkin ada online FB.. Social Network itu penting, mendekatkan org jauh dan dekat! lebih2 lg dgn org kejiranan afghanistan. (pakistan le maksud i, dgr kabar bulan june mereka pulak dtg malaysia., actually they have been here.!!) ehehehe.. still, Thank you for asking about me, my new post, u helped ease my stress away! did this making me feel in love again? hurm, no lah belum sampai tahap itu! berbunga-bunga adalah, adanya kawan baru.. but i do rasa, dihargai again, from a guy fren! tu yg sweet .., lgpun lama sgt dah org office i ingat i lesbian.. lesbian yg cool & hot kowt? ehehehe :)

D truth, kpd close new fren/colleagues of mine... I was never a lesbian cuma am just keeping it low, single, am still Erwina! deep down, hati ini masih sama! :(

Aite, share ngn korang my latest fav; beside Maroon 5, Paul McD, Aerosmith, Pink, The Script, Daughtry, GIGI, i hargai lagu2 Maher Zain; close to me heart now;

Allahi Allah kiya karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam ussi ka liya karo.

Allah hee Allah…

Allahi Allah kiya karo
Dukh na kissi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam usi ka liya karo.

Allahi Allah…

Just like a sunrise can’t be denied
Oh, just like the river will find the sea
O Allah, You’re here and You’re always near
And I know without a doubt
That You always hear my prayer

Such ki raah pay chala karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam ussi ka liya karo.

Allah hee Allah..

Allah hee Allah kiya karo
Dukh naa kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam usi ka liya karo.

Allah hi Allah

So many bright stars
Like diamonds in the sky
Oh, it makes me wonder
How anyone can be blind
To all the signs so clear
Just open your eyes
And I know without a doubt
You will surly see the light

Aisa zulm na kiya karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam usi ka liya karo.

Allah hee Allah

Allah he Allah kiya karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam ussi ka liya karo.

Allah Hi Allah Kiya Karo Dukh Na Kissi Ko Diya …

Zoom Out, Zoom In, Zoom Out with Love

2011-03-19T21:29:00.000-07:00

Salam,

Zooming out way back before i left for Lahore, all the scary thoughts were flying in my head. Would this be a joyful and adventurous ride? Would my work be a successful one? for we hear of bombings, killings, riots and etc. in the news happening in the few corners of Pakistan.

First touched down at the Alama Iqbal Airport, the scary feeling continues, for i did had a bad weather flying that night from thailand. Big turbulence, feeling as if, the were long moments where the plane were dropping down fast, fast wind screeching sound! i berzikir taubat a lot to myself, some were crying... for after two hours later, we finally reached Lahore. By 12 midnite, 2pm Malaysian time..we were lining up for the customs check point. feeling sleepy, tired and by looking at their customs aje dah give us the chilled... the impression of dodgyness!

Worrying that our flight were delayed, and therefore, would the arrangement for hotel pickup still be on? we just kept searching for our name on the welcoming board sign. Finally came a man, showing us our name listed there, and waited outside for us. Wow, after immigration scanning, we went to grab our luggage, damn, another waiting moments for the bag, agak tak tersusun, many pakistani's were in front getting their bag, imagine small me, tryna reached out for mine? mashallah, i hampir ingat my bag were taken by sumone else. thank goodness, it was not! got it with me, and we then headed for our cab. surprisingly, we were welcome also by representative from our partner, Mr, Syed Hassan Rizvi and Mr Khalid. Brief introduction, and set our meeting tomorrow morning and off we go our ways..

Outside, breezing cold wind.. sejuknya, nyaman sgt.. but rather dusty.,. enjoying the first view of lahore at night, but scary, we had to go through many army check points before we reached our hotel. even going inside the hotel area, pun dah ada dua checkpoint.. scanned our bag.. so that is our routine i would have to say, day by day... to be scanned our stuff in and out!!

Anyhow, had me rest, in the beautiful executive suite, the very next day is our first meeting with our partner of exhibition. Feeling a little nervous meeting the whole team. waiting at the lobby. my director were nervous too for wanna to start a better future of working relationship with Pakistan, so many things have to be taken notes of. and guess what, my role here was, jeng jeng jeng, not for exhibition team aje this time. different role actually, they wanted to train me, itu agenda mereka, for next time, they could send me alone. going meeting with partners by myself. i have been hijacked into my director team, so he finally senyum said. this was just dibincangkan oleh my managing director...and diluluskan by me as well.. hampeh paul, quietly diorang ek?..So bersyukur I, for they put their trust in me, but I need to learn more, to be handling one to one.. discussing big matters.. phew! Although, insyallah, I will raise up to this new challenge.

So finally the team from our partners came, brief intro again, and we went for a short coffee-morning meeting. before heading to the expo centre.. here i was introduced to Mr, Aarij, Yasir, & Hassan. Still first conversation was very business mode. Formal oriented. :)

Soon, we headed straight to the expo centre.. along the way, i shot some view of lahore from inside the fast moving car.. (do you know how fast they drive? very fast i would say.. dangerous man..) A quick feedback from the Chief Director, Mr Aarij was "is this your passion Erwina?" photography?.. at was first i was shy, blurted out it is mostly for work! then he smiled..and..i cudn't hide it..." but yeah, am so into photography passionately.." hehe. So he then forth showing and telling me stories about lahore, and pointed out the expo centre at last stop of that drive.

Here soon after, work in progress started, Me seperti machine, mula install exhibition. Keluarkan my marketing materials.. setup machine for display, gantung poster and etc. me worked so well with the AP team.. there I was introduced to Hanif, Faisal, Shahzar, Rizwan.. and more, alamal lupa nama.. it was done until 7pm.. But they took us out for lunch at this beautiful hi-tea place earlier at 5.30pm. we had a blast meal at Freddie's. shedap sgt.. manage to catch some places near Gulberg, a famous mall area.

Everyday, working from morning til 8pm was the same routine, had a blast, i even had experienced going to a customer visit here. was so cool, but funny, in the meeting, they didn't turn up the lights.. i wanted to gelak besar, and asked but tahan aje. awat cek? tak bukak lampu? As you know, weherver pun, am a joker ma.. so keadaan ini agak bizarre untuk saya diamkan diri.. wahahaha! anyhow, as i said, the rest of the exhibition gone so well. i could be happy with report this time. so happy, esp bila i conduct and gear it with Paul! So thankful, bila balik office baru2 ni pun, my MD seem so proud, for he said Paul bagi I very good review! alhamdulillah, namun kerja now makin melambung! uiks,

eh, back to Lahore, when working me focus to me work, shot lotsa photos, but cant share here nor FB.. cos it is hak milik office. But the rest here... is my view of Lahore, so do enjoy.. Cos i had tons of good memories here. More in FB. do have a look. For i had a one day off that last day, and I told Hanif, i have no plans lagi, cuma i wanna take that 1OO ringgit malaysia nye trip to historical places run by the hotel. and tak sangka2, he came back the next day and told me, it is ok Erwina, everything is fixed for you., For Mr Yasir, will take you for a tour around Lahore.. and i was like.. WHAT? omg.. seriously??? hati mak berdebar kowt.. but for sure i wouldn't missed it.. it is truly kind if him to take me out... for Paul akan bergerak ke Karachi dulu and back staright to Thailand. so am all alone for the tour.. but am so very excited! indeed i am.. Breaking the gap, each day, at lunch, at everywhere, he said that hehas the same passion for gadget and photography as mine. huhu.. so slowly we break the gap barrier. to more informal conversation and more relaxed. You know, talking bout books, food stuff Still, my heart berdebar thinking that, i would be spending time a day with his company and sumhow, he wish to take me to where i wanna go.. I for sure wanna go to Museum, historical places, or art gallery and a little shopping will do. he then planned for Museum and Fort Lahore, there i view this magnificent Mosque, where our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW has been there berdakwah many years ago.. most of his belongings are there at the museum. but no camera allowed, ans we went walking to the Lahore Fort, this huge fort and beautiful garden named shalamar garden.. phew, wanna to write down more, but my brain is still a little tired. hope pictures help to tell the beauty i experienced. i hope.

after the whole tour experienced, oh ya forgotten to mentioned that Hassan bhai, hanif and faisal bhai did come along and enjoy the fun.. so i have four models to photograph with.. we then went to McDonalds for a quick lunch and to Hypermart for shopping. He knew, i wanted to buy me mom and sist a kurti so, he accompanied me there..well just like carrefour, nothing much. So i went shopping My parfum with him.. same love for parfum ey mr? huhu.. goody grab mine, then we went back, but for i mentioned to him, "i hope my family wouldnt think that i betrayed them for i got nothing for them..".. after we went out of carrefoure, with my reluctant feel, just a while, he asked hassan to turn back, drive back around and went to a boutique.. he still want to help me find them Kurti.. wow, so sweet babe.

And guess what? after three boutique, i found beautiful two kurti.,.and guess who picked it? of course i did lah.. but was well approved by the guys.. so cute ey? they hardly shop for their wives, but they help me out! hehehehe.. anyhow, that was a balst. i thought the day was over, but yasir said that, he has one more stop before a surprise for me.. huh? what?

we stopped at READINGS, a bookstore, yeah.. my fav!!!!! lotsa books here, travelog, arts wow, comics, cute children books! my fav. too bad i have not enough money. wanna use my credit card, but i kinna wanna save my money for someone! i think?????? anyhow, afther book stop, he asked hassan to drive back into gulberg and stopped at sweet shop, He said, dear lady, let's go, am buying you the sweets. OMG, he remembered for i said at one of the night that, i wanna eat gulab jamon, and kat dinner place tu lak takde.. in which a da Kulfi ajer.. so he remembered it, and he's buying for me to take back home and for my family.. alamak, babe, me boleh pitam then and there jugak ok? so i went up to sweets store, and byknye kowt.. still act cool.. and terima pemberian itu dgn hati terbuka. :)

next. barulah time to say goodbye, by looking at the time, it is 7pm.. my flight at 12 midnite, so they send me back to the hotel. I could arrange for airport taxi from the hotel., so not a problem waiting there. Before sayonara, salam akhir, hik hik hik, Mr Sweet Guy, key in his mobile number into my cell.. OMG.. u know me lah kan, dah lama i tak open up to sumone new..finally i have this beautiful feeling again! a good fling hurm.. :) so that's why i would quote, a beautiful time in Lahore. at least we could still keep in touch now.

my MD says taht wal bulan ni nk hantar i lagi ke Karachi, for AP karachi exhibition. In my heart, ya allah, betul ke ni? but i byk keje, tak mungkin kowt! but if its true terserah ilahi, alhamdulillah kalau ada peluang jumpa them lagi..

In the end, I would also say here that, I've been accompanied by elites. therefore, zoom in, everything is beautiful, but i have to say, the rich are the richer and the poor are the poorer here. Going traveling alone might be all another adventure! Zoom Out back now, i would love to be there again.

salam dari Lahore...

2011-03-12T05:49:00.000-08:00

memupuk kemesraan ~ M'sia NZ

2011-03-08T18:41:00.000-08:00

melawat ke tapak rawang

bila nak siap nih agaknye?? Zack......bilik gue mana?

PHEWWW, after all the activity, late nites, me finally rest me eyes last nite at 1pm upon reaching home at 12midnite.. takut wo lalu guthrie sowang tgh malam... anyhow, sampai umah, kecapetan... lalu, bukan terus tidur.. pi main ngn adam dulu.. wahahaha..

anyhow.. am so happy and thrilled to be having outdoor activities with my two laydees from Auckland.. Vani and Enrica... at least me & fadli, had the opportunity of being as naive tourist as them two.. tak pernah naik KL Tower.. WALAUPUN dekat! hehe... was gud! tarian malaysia, normallah, biasa aje.. colorful malaysian dance aje, takde yg betul2 menarik hati I... mana pergi tarian Melayu yang Authentic yg kurindui agaknye..? after tht penatnye berjalan ke Petaling Street, tak sempat ke CM kerna udah capek banget! tp gak apa-apa kok.. kerna they had the blast of time ever with us, so they say.. and mua as the tour guide... thanks Mia, my colleague cos jadi my own tour guide pulak.. ahaha.. so next.. u guys entertained me in Auckaland rite.. but please,, NO NEAR THE SHARKS EY??? ahahhaha.. :)

okie doks.. yesterday dikhabarkan dgn another bombing di Pakistan.. agak menakutkan hati.. tapi, today masa tetap berjalan, hari last untuk mengemas brg kerja, and final preparation.. cadangan kerajaan wanna pulang tgh karang mungkin...maun ke money changer... esok Me Journey Began..Doakan aku selamat pergi balik dan berjaya dgn kerja, Amin.

okie doks, salam sampai disini.. sampai ketemu kita hujung minggu hadapan.. dengan itu.. assalammualaikum... wahahaha... skema seh

XOXO
Azlia Erwina

rumah liza/umah ilut.. rumah sarawak..buekkk!! :P

me food.. nyum. delicious "hot spicy clear soup koteyau!!!" ahahaha.

A Doctor in the House

2011-03-08T17:02:00.000-08:00

The Memoirs of Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad

Che Det as my Idola, THE BEST PM EVER! kepada 1Malaysia juga, maybe?

akan tetapi, Rasional atau tidak beliau?

Bertikam Lidah...?

berkongsi cerita tentang saudara lain in his autobiography...?

This is HIS STORY: A Story of Malaysia as he sees it.

Apa mungkin niat di hati, supaya rakyat berhati hati, agar tidak tersalah pilih. tujuan mungkin, bukan untuk mengaibkan.

Namun, rasional pembaca pula, sudah pasti kita lebih rela disuapkan dgn kisah2 titik tolak perjuangan Tun sendiri yg boleh dijadikan bekalan kepada pejuang muda..

My personal view, God is Forgiving, therefore we human should too.. If

I believe, You have done the best of your will for the human right.

As makhluk tuhan, You'll gain kindness in heaven if you deserves it.

But as we're still living on earth, do kind unto others, as you wish them to do unto you. Live up to harmony...

Mentari Merah di ufuk eropah...

2011-03-07T00:11:00.000-08:00

Assalammualaikum,

Am looking closely at the time now, restless me...take 5 jap, for blogging... in silence, heart pounding so fast.. had me normal lunch with the guys this afternoon, tempat biasa aje today, makan di Pit-stop. Quietly eating, kerna at the back of my mind masih memikirkan kejadian pagi tadi, diingatkan dgn tegas by my senior collague, regarding my coming trip to Paki. Yes, in next few days i'll be leaving. today, tomorrow dan lusa aku masih ada guest dari NZ yg perlu aku entertained nite and day.. dun get me wrong.. business meeting lah.. seminar, lunch and dinner le... Namun, regarding my coming trip ni, makin restless aku dibuatnye day by day, bertambah resteless bila semua reminded be to be XTRA careful.. of everything, they just thought of Lahore as the big triangle..kawasan BAHAYA. tp, a fren of my sista in Karachi ckp, it is a Fashion City and is very beautiful..cuma in the news lately mmg ada saje riot & assasination di Lahore! my o my... tak cukup dgn itu semua... tgh tadi pun the guys dah warning, why ambik 5star hotel? cos lagi easy target.. bombards kan byk berlaku kt 5star sana.. they asked me to locked my bag, this and that...bila muka i pun agak sedikit berubah.. barulah depa buat lawak sikit.. kunun, ko jgn balik selagi tak bawak balik carpet! ahahaha! dah tu tak pasal2 suh i bawak zan teman... Yelah tu ramzul oi, wa insyaallah bwk balik satu key-chain carpet for u kalau ada...n kalau abah bagi zan ikut, me ok je... :) hurm... Ya allah, sememangnye makin kecut perut aku, namun ya allah, kepadaMu aku berlindung... aku pergi kali ini atas urusan kerja juga, aku bekerja untuk mencari rezeki, kerana Mu, moga kau lindungilah perjalanan aku.
Although am very afraid, i still be going. jadi kita berserahlah pada ilahi. My most concern is, jadikanlah exhibition ini satu lagi kejayaan. Amin. lagipun, aku syukur, pergiku tetap berdua, namun bila balik aje, flight aku sorang2 all the way. GULP!

hurm, aik, awat tajuk blog tak sama dgn content...

sebenarnya, aku punya resah ni dari weekend lepas lagi, masa nk kemas bag.. ada sedikit gusar... so me told me family, me wanna rest at home, lepas balik keje ari sabtu mengemas office...(sibuk je kamarul & zan - depa pun dtg office gak nk mengemas) hehehe.. anyways, balik je keje, bincang with my family, me wanna layan astro je.. i saw the box office and khurafat promo.. terus aku ambik, i took ABO, sebab ada Search docu-concert kt London, and terus-terang aku ckp, KHURAFAT tak best!! :P
Interesting nye tgk Search, cos, unexpectedly... pt.2 ni, showcased lagu yg close to me heart.. start dgn Fenomena and Pawana.. walaweihh.. "i just missed dgr someone singing this two song.. walau suara teramat nyaring bila neran.. ahahah.." the good old days huh!!! ~ anyhow... here i recorded a few glimpse.. tp lambatnye nk upload...

layan lah fenomena ni dulu.. yg pawana tu.. gua sibuk nyanyi in the background.. so agak kusut lak dgr bila playback, ~ rupanya i ada talent gak nyanyi lagu depa... cos eventually suara i lebih nyaring dari abg amy... although teramat off pitch and tak sedap langung!!! ahahahahahaha!!!"

oklah, masa blogging tammat.. back to bekerja.. ptg ni activity kita One World Hotel! :)
penatnye, bag tak habis kemas lgi cik kak oi!

persoalan now, nk bwk lappy ke tak? takut kt hotel tarak wireless, tak leh guna phone.. dok try contact call hp paki from here.. tak pernah nye dapat.. haishhh... tawakkaltuallalullah ajer lah..

smoke gets in my eyes.. pedihnye!

2011-02-27T02:28:00.000-08:00

only luahan hati~ L-O-S-E-R when it comes to Love! YUP YUP, that's me!

Am not crying, Nope am not..!

Habuk masuk mata kowt... Maybe? am just tired...

I hate Facebook, sumtimes! or maybe, news flash of others, or tgk photos of a mere stranger! yikes, hachik, hacik, hacik, hahahaha.. dats y i warned myself "jgn pandang bai, jgn pandang..." anyhow.. that's my life..sudah terpandang, and sedih! siot!!! hey, who said am sad, am not rite?? penat je.. it's alrite, aku pun nak fly here and there dah, hopefully..., it will take my mind awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, far awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! tolonglah... make me a new person completely, to be better, inside out!!!!! yes, insyaallah.. alang2 lebih baik aku terbang tak balik2 dah, hihi..kalau dpt mati syahid di negeri org ok gak kowt,.. (ha, bila kata2 begini i dh typed on, meaningnye Erwina mmg sedih) ... astargfirulahazim... oh ya, talking about fly, hurm, agak gusar hati tgk news lately, ada saje bombard activities kt Pakistan ni.. agak kecut lutut juga lately. tp setahu aku, lahore is a city of Fashion.. shud be ok rite?.. New Zealand lak, as long as jgn jejak air sudahlah.. cos byk SHARKSSSSSSSSS.. huhu! my fav animal yg scares me to shit!

Anyhow, wut else to catit here... beside the sadness tht am trying to hide..? finally self-ngaku! ahaha... i think i need my caramel coffee lah.. rindu lak, San Francisco coffee satu.. dulu i slalu buy for Two? damn it... nw for ONE pun susah!!!!!!!! shoot..

Ohya, another thing, cik mimie called my cell baru kejap tadi, i dah kat rumah dah... and now.. again today Mimie hate me lagi, choykan I kt phone lg cos i tak mo join jumpa ptg ni... am sorry dear!!!, bukan tak mo, u guys go aheadlah have fun kat Gudang, surely best!!!! but myself, seganlah nk jumpa saudara Hamir... i have nothing else to share with him lately.. :). Zero knowledge of Art... kang dia bosan, since ilmu and info tentang Art I dah berkurangan kowt!!!...kang i dok bodo main kura2 dia jer.. ada lagi ke ek?? ehehehe...anyhow mimie, how's the event earlier today? menarik???? i think sgt menarik kan???? good for all the people there..

Wow, guessed what? dah hujan dah kt luar, just like what i'm feeling inside kan? G -R -E -A- T!

Kalau hati sedih ni selain solat, kita leh wat ape yek bila dirumah? ... chapter #2, model kecil i ler, apa lagi yg bisa??. since Kami dah potong rambut Hero Malaya kenit kami tadi..y not ey? a photo or two?

So, erwina pun layan snap away... ceria sikit gakla tgk my chenta hati...nw pun nk senja dah, rehat jap, tido, and wake tomorrow dah a new day...

It's ok it's alright, esok kerja, i'll be fine, keje bertimbun atas meja untuk dilayan, exhibition lak byk lg nk organise, !!!! Visa pun tak buat lagi nih, tuesday lah ke KL...

aite for nw... ciao!! layan si abg botak head!!!!

My Lab Rat , me smallest top model - the best

2011-02-26T02:46:00.000-08:00

Salam,

Hurm, supposedly me wanna do some outing doing outdoor photoshoot today. So that I could present them photos tomorrow at photography class...I mmg dah nekad dah petang semalam, cos i heard there's a Buka Jalan event happening in town, ain't it? kalau nk maklumat lanjut sila hubungi cik Intan.. ahaha.. :) so I thought, y not ey? i pun ada hari ni je hari last for me to relaxkan diri, plus it definitely be just lotsa great shots can be taken there, at least I could play practice my new skills sumwhere sumhow.. but i guess, that was only my plan ptg semalam. Asked mak buyung Liza earlier, nk ikut tak?? she terang2 ckp Tak Nak.. ahahaha.. esp cos dia almost nk meletop and depa nk balik rembau... Tanya cik mimie lak, mau itot ke? mak aih kena maki lak, huhu, cos she actually ada xhibition juga malam ni! kelam sikit lah dia... "sekali lagi kena maki ngn cik mimie cos, as usual me tak dpt dtg kowt tonite, and Cik Mimie@adele@ikut suka lu lah babe, truthfully, sejujurnya... I have asked my MD personally before, masa u mintak sedikit sumbangan for Indonesia, I've tried before mie. He just not interested, walaupun duit mmg kepeng2, and there's this one time he received in the mail an art catalogue from mana tah, guessed who he calls to his room next? "ME", gua kena panggil masuk bilik, cos dia pass that book to me.. of course lah me happy.. tapi ayat dia "Erwina, this is pure Art, not for me... HERE you take it...All pretty things" ... and without arguing a tiny bit with him, as i always do... me pun blah aje..So mimie, trust me hun, he ain't interested at all.. am so sorry..still love ya babe.

Anyhow, tis morning waking up, terasa nk pergi, tp after I did my exercise a while...pastu penat.. rehat lak nunton tv sikijam.. dah tu plak..tertengok satu scene yg menarik...terus me pick up me camera, and start snapping my most fav model in the world...MuQaddam... ehehehe.. adam dgn baju London Orange dia.. ps: tis baju is a baju tido for a baby boy that he's wearing ok, walaupun a little sexy.. huhu.. anyhow's now pun dh petang, layan relax dirumah pun bagus juga.. esoklah, full activity photoshoot..

How's my Lab Rat..? Ain't he an angel Top Model!!! Tapi, at the end of our photo session, time pic atas ni.. ha, dia tgh wat hal... adam start beyyak!!! eww.. :p

Farewell Roslee - Penentuan Geng Sayur!

2011-02-25T01:19:00.000-08:00

b,
b,
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Until now, masih musykil, yg mana geng sayur nih? Aite, so long, farewell Roslee, finally today, last day for him, setelah dipanggil masuk kembali menyiapkan kerja for extra 3 days.. akhirnya, dia akan cau ptg ni!!! til we meet again bro... aite, as for me... erwina pulang awal lah today... penat sgt2, mau rehat, kemas2 bag jom, salam all!!!! gtg!!!!

Ps: abang yea? hurm.. oklah.. Jgn risau, gue tahu kok, beza antara kita!! kalau, ada rezeki dr ilahi, saya ambil er6n juga, atau yg ini

vroom vroom... wahh, am in love!

2011-02-22T19:42:00.000-08:00

Just before the event semalam, d evening dat hunny bunny Zan, akan membawa pulang his new Kawasaki. hurm, so cool, fresh bau kedai!!!! :)

and pagi ini...

(abaikan the dustbin, if my trainer beside me nih, mesti dia marah with my angle, wut to do, tempat sempit ma)

hurm, so sexy lah moto awak ni... tapi mahal sgt kowt! mengamuk family i... I think me start small, but someone important to me say it is a No No pulak, don't get it.. tapi, u guys keep pushing me to take the 250 first, then and now.. siut je... mmglah korang risau me tergolek with er6n, hurm,...i pun risau gak, still, ya allah, permudahkanlah keputusan, and kalau boleh percepatkanlah rezeki... ehehehe! :)

whateva it is, sy masih memikirkan, 250 buruk sgt ke? y, awak against it?

Pssst.. sy budak baru belajar..

2011-02-20T22:22:00.000-08:00

Salam Dearie all..,

Phew penatnye last week, packed workload/activities morning til nite, monday till sunday...

but the last two days was Awesome-Delightful... full-time class of Advanced Photography@ Nikonian Academy.

Dear God, My trainer Sir Andrew Boey..."si kenit pakai baju purple kt photos bwh ni" i have to salute u,

u're awesome man, the best the magnificent!!!!! I wish I cud become Nikonian Trip group & Nat Geo's grooup photogaphers soon! hehe.. x sabar.. teori pun lintang pukang lagi... hahaha... anyhow.. semangat jati diri harus tinggi.. ahaha...pelan2 kayuh dulu rite?

okie doks, layanlah photo2 i've shoot kat bawah ni...from the best class session ever, met Thomas (Switzerland), Win (Burma), Amen (Saudi Arabia), Shin Wei (Malaysia) and many more good people here... kenalan facebook baru.. ehehe... and the best trainer ever, Andrew, Romelle, and Wei Liang... oh oh not forgetting, the beautiful and happening models, JoJo, Nicole and George!!! :) aite peace out..

P/S: Please do not Judge, sy budak baru lulusan certificate Advanced Photography ajer... kasi can maa...

kutuk nanti ye.. sebab tu tak taruk nama lagi kt photo ni... takdak siapa nk curik pong.... hurm, lepas ni mau nickname apa ek? how bout NEAR, is it ok??

here yee... and here is my trainer with the beautiful JoJo!!! :) peace out!

luruh hati, MuQadam demam panas! :(

2011-02-17T19:12:00.000-08:00

Sedih kut, kat office the guys buat farewell tonite for a close colleague at Sports Planet, tomorrow nite pula nk leisure kat Beach Club entertained a German guest... libang-libu nye hati ini. jauh sudut hati i know i tak patut keluar malam, waktu2 adam tak sihat ni... tapi actually now tgh nk merapatkan diri dengan seoarang kawan lelaki ini.. dia ajak sgt i pergi... hurm, kalau jodoh pasti ada peluang lain kowt? michik sedang kuatkan diri usaha nk cari pichik.. tapi mungkin not the rite time, tahlah, kita tgk tonite kesihatan adam. ape-apepun, ya allah, selamatkanlah jantung hatiku adam.

Insane_ Nocturnal!

2011-02-16T16:45:00.000-08:00

Workoholic ! Musicholic ! Mini Shopaholic, in becoming ! Yup that's me...

tudung baru lagi minggu ni... 1 outta 5 yg aku dah rembat beli......mak suka sgt noks ! ~ " ni post khas nk tunjuk kat liza, yg subuh sepii lagi dah on9, terimakasih pada maira kerna masih tido, and thank u pada UNI5, kerna memberikan internet yg laju pada liza pooi.. Me guna vodafone je kt rumah, hampeh lembap, asyik down, nak tukarlah!!! anyhow, liza.. tetap salam sayang dari gwe.. bini alam maya Maher Zain .... BARAKKALLAH! lalu terus dijawabnye liza... "...udah udah lah tuh..kita bako ajer!

Nak Buat Otak-otak terbuat Satah Udang.. hehe!

2011-02-13T22:00:00.000-08:00

EKSPERIMENTAL COOKING? yikes.
My sista and mama, sibuk last week mahu start hantar berniaga their kuih pagi2 with kak kuds. Best sgt tgk effort diorg, Cos mmg mama gemar sgt cooking these days, and A++ lak tu. My sist lak, anything yg she wants to cook or baked lately nih, tanya je hubby dia, abg norman akan bagi recipe, and alhamdulillah menjadi lakbila kakak buat... I would say, setakat ini, bila kami hidang our dessert, ppl would fall in love dgn Puding Caramel mama, and Popia sardine kakak.. even i just love them myself too. Ilut, liza, siva, iqram, kak kuds semua pun suka pudding mama kan? I wish them luck in their usaha, wanita bercareer yg kebosanan di rumah..., and hopefully they'll all happy in the end. Actually mama n kakak ni more or less, lebih kepada nk bersedekah,

Hurm, so apa kisah michik lak? ahahaha... bila diorg bersemangat nk berniaga, ... ME MYSELF AND I.. mana leh tak nyebok jugak.. I pun masukkan lah menu i dlm tu.. I asked my sist to tanya abg norman, on how to make Popia otak2.. and she did got it frm Abg Norman, tp mak aih, remeh na recipe nye... :)

when we wanna buy perkakas semalam, i changed plan, i ckp better not what otak2 tenggiri, cos siapa rajin nk buang tulang? might as well kita wat otak2 udang... and we did bought udang besar.. Ha, then ptg tu i pun nolong cos ini menu yg i mintak kan?
siang tu I ke Balai Polis... ahahaa.. settle warran! *lega settle satu hal duniawi~... so ptg tu, kat rumah kami mula dgn EXSPERIMEN kami... debar... campak ini, campak itu, wahaha.. actually in my family, me n abg norman je yg gila makan otak2 kat mana2, plg suka kat One utama...bestnya mama n kakak makan ala kadar aje, "syok ar, tak ramai org berebut ngn i" hehehe..... tetap it is my fav dish, just like kopok lekor..

So, blender nye blender, garam secukup rasa sket...gula sket, lihatlah DUNIA... I berjaya wat Popia Otak-otak.. cuma tak leh panggil popia otak2.. cos isinya.. i rasa macam satah... Still aku yg belasah habis.. setelah workout petang... sia2 je buang few calories!!! :p ngehehe.

Aite, am damn busy actually, byk tak siap nih, esok cuti, rabu, Korean mai training... but something about today, my own luahan hati... makes me Mellow plak, happy mndgr suara hati sumone tapi sedih sgt sebenarnya..tuhan shj yg tahu,.,. Action is Larger than word kan.. takpe, i wish him all the happiness in the world. asalkan dia bahagia..!! peace out, spread love! Apepun.. mencatit sket tentang otak2 smlm ni, kasi wa senyum sket now :).. aite, gtg.. masuk keje balik... meeting.. abah kristian i panggil! chow..
salam

love,
erwina

Kepadamu Kekasih..

2011-02-13T17:38:00.000-08:00

Keagungan Mu, KeindahanMu Ya Allah.. AgungNya Cintamu ya Allah.

" Hasbiallahu laa ilaa ha illa huwa 'alayhi tawwakkaltu wa huwa rabb-al-'arshi-il'azeem " Bacalah 7 kali di setiap pagimu, InsyAllah, allah akan mendengar rayuan kamu and he will grant your wish. tapi utamanya kamu harus ikhlas, Yakin, bahawasanya, semua yg terjadi datangnya dari DIA, semua aturan hidup, dugaan, adalah Kerja dia, maka yakinlah dialah yg dapat membantu kamu mengharunginya.

Allah is sufficient for me. There is none worthy of worship but Him.

I have placed my trust in Him. He is Lord of Majestic Throne.

... Bersyukurku hari ini, mendapat hari baru, nafas lega. Selamanya, atas segala Khilafku, Ya ALLAH, ku mohon keampunanMu.

kembali Dapat ku terbang ke luar negara, pergi bekerja dengan tenang kini.. Syukur Alhamdulillah kepada Allah SWT.

Set your goals high, and don't stop till you get there. ~ Bo Jackson

2011-02-08T17:10:00.000-08:00

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I have Fall in Love. few times been in and out of love... but dun get me wrong, am not talking bout relationship with people/human this time... am talking about my love with machine. In any sense of love, I've always been a passionate person, love for God, for music, for other soul, for creative designs, .. and i've always wish for these love shall forever end. Tho' I find some downhill with loving myself with another human, for it is always two side of a story, kalau hanya seorang antara partner yg ikhlas, menyayangi and yakin, that relationship shall never work; walau banyak mana you percaya, memaafkan or usaha sekalipun! yet, tetap sebagai islam kita harus redho' ada hikmahnya.... lagipun kini, saya lebih yakin, and I do forsee myself being married in two years top for Allah is Maha Besar, Maha Pengampun, Maha Pemurah, Maha Adil, Maha Menyayangi dan Maha Mengetahui and so on lagi keAgunganNya. Lagipun in this Chapter of life, mama pesan "adik kena percaya pd Allah, kerna dia yang menjumpakan kita dgn jodoh kita". Sebelum ini lebih kurang I ada menyatukan org, tentu ada rezeki I disatukan. So, heck NO am giving up with myself, just yet, cuma kena lebih rajin ke Gym, supaya dapat put myself back on the market~! Bukan senang to get in the game... But never will I give in, for this is THE STORY OF MY LIFE!

Sumhow yesterday, syukur juga mendengar, my senior sales manager, came up to me and said, "I forsee you do very well being Head of Marketing"... I smiled back at him, for am taking things slowly here, and there's never less ways to keep on learning and doing the best and better as I could possibly can!

And today morning, my love for machine makin membuak-buak. for i was dead bored driving slowly in jem getting out of bandar Saujana Utama, sikit je jemnya at the winding kampung road, tapi soon after terus run along on highway Guthrie and highways all the way! everyday, iwill be passing by big bikes, berbiji-biji... everyday am so envy them.. besar and cantik. this machine is so damn sexy and lovable for me.

And as I was overwhelmed by kak kuds punya bike. I was thinking of getting the same one as hers. I love hers, and she is not that tall pun, abg khoirull pun.. wahaaha, giggled her this morning when i told her about ketinggian, and how that makes me feel I boleh bawak moto tu jugak! ahahaha.. still, them both support me.. And bestnya, paling utama.... Mama and Kakak support me as well dah. Finally Green Light! at last, PHEW!

Anyhow, i hope it will be soon before long///One litre of gas will blaze in a two mile ride, for i will work hard to pay off, for my pride/// :)

I bukanlah tamak, give me 10 months or less. Kumpul duit dulu, by that time, Company Rawang pun dah siap, so bolehlah join convoy ama Kamarul and Zan juge; InsyaAllah!

P/s: Kak Kuds nye in Black, and I do love hers, but I love more in Plain white. Googled up today, yes baru today... 2011. they have Kawasaki ER-6N in White. What say u guys...? I should get a bike again kan? Never EVER should I tanamkan minat ni kan? InsyaAllah.

Erwina and Associates; a retinue... THE BEST

2011-02-06T02:06:00.000-08:00

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Salam, hey all. introducing above is me best male entourage.. where u shall see me now, in a small little way u shall see them.. well, having a male fren entourage kinna have its own ups and down..do they? hehe.. Sometimes jst being too close, gets us bickering with one another all the time.. Macamnalah my boss Sunny dok kenen i kawen with one of them? ahahaha... gila kowt, close at heart, tapi kerap gaduh kowt! esp when semuanya nak menang any challenge, or best ideas.. only yg bagusnye about this group of mine, semuanya sama kepala.. and mostly we're so alike when Kami Semua Amatlah Keras Kepala.. kecoh gak bila ngam balik ngan IQ EQ tinggi ni...but, anyways, all of us in favor.. we appreciate the sista-brotherhood! or ehem ehem.. hehe :) aite, again introducing... frm left to rite, ramzul, kamarul, hacker(z), mua and zan daly (laly master). hee, now.. as on my left all is married, tapi tagline depa baru nikah sekali.. 'MEN' choy! and yg on my right.. cute single zan.. Peace ya'll!!! gmbr ni taken last wednesday, semua ni bergaya posing for my caller id, so alang2, kita blog aje terus with these.. lagipun, touching juge me heart, cos last wednesday pagi2 lagi my sales director masuk bilik i, bailing out on me (a very cool person indeed) tapi still he bailed out on a trip with me, tak jadi pergi sama ke pakistan awal march ni... tergamam gue, kena hantar ke exhibition Lahore alone.. the guys dah worry dah... risau me going alone.. ahh sweet guys!! sejuk sket hati i tgh tu while first time try makan AYAM Penyek kat Curve.. sedap kowt!! me sukalah.. pedas gila... hee.. and kamarul wish to teman gi keje with me there, since he's da big boss of engineering dept, so agaknye no hal lah kot fr him... tapi durationnye seminggu, so he can't leave anak buah and dept. dia for an exhibition.. tapi me tak kesah sgt, travelling alone ni...saya pergi pun kerana allah dan kerja... walaupum am a little scared but am not that bothered, cuma kes di Malaysia ni yg meresahkan, hari ke hari tak settle lagi.. hurm, apalah keputusannya? 'sigh* anyhw... as fr now.. am just gonna continue with planning, and work preparation to come.. hopefully semuanya sempat siap.. chinese new year ni cuti lama, my designs semua dah siap approved, tapi printing wise yg MAK TAKUT NOKS! now plak, i kan ke dah one woman show! DOA-doakan insyallah.. harap things goes well... and smooth and swelling feedback after pameran. doakan good things fr me k? oklah, walau apepun.. apa yang penting.. KERJASAMA.. "GYM everyday.." so that saham naik balik.. wahahaha... keep fit and say healthy to LIFE!!!!! :) hehe.. kot kot, dpt sangkut Mr. Right kayo pakistan.. tapi ketiak harus wangi.. wahahaha!!!!! cos saya love comfortly tidur bwh ketiak!! ahahaaha...

Oh ya, second part lak.. is my favorite entourage of all time,.. my family.. gambar G-ma je takleh upload.. cos she always... ehem ehem... *half naked kt umah* wahahahahahahaha.. sure i kena sebat, if she read this! *wink* so enjoy lah picas adam... yg tgh busy posing with his brand new Vincent combat shoe.. (cute sgt, mummy dia belikan)...

and third part lak picas, me and sista, half day trip pulang ke ke rumah Ipoh, ambik surat-menyurat, kutip more baju tertinggal and adam things, and tapau Ikan Siakap masak 3 rasa Koh SaMuI, and kerabu mangga... (mum's fav dish) balik Kl... phew, the trip was so exhausting kowt, pengsan u, i drive the whole freaking journey, sampai balik kl terus mangkor...kena pulak, jem kat all the way kt highway! siut! but best part, masa balik, first singgah canning garden tapau chee cheong fun udang, and on the way there, dpt lah gelak tawa ngn kakak, passing by Kete ol skool and moto ol skoll with helmet takde span, cinapek2 ipoh, yg bawak slow nk mampus.. wahahah.. apek,.. NGO HOW KWA JI LEI YA!!! (hehehe) and sampai umah aje, sejuk hati, sedih, rindu lama tak balik.. lg best bila my car terserempak ngan Azril and family dpn rumah, so hilang rindu.. owh n jumpa gak Ah Seng (Calvin) with his over-amazing car! always my fav! Gong Xi Gng Xi... wow, sure do miss Ipoh, pertumbuhan pembangunan yg sungguh pesat, tunggu puasa ye, kami pulang satu family... :)

Welcome to my silly life..

2011-01-31T17:35:00.000-08:00

Cracks In The Crystal Ball

2011-01-30T02:49:00.000-08:00

Regret is ...

an unavoidable result of any loss, for in loss we lose the tomorrow that we needed to make right our yesterday or today.

GERALD LAWSON SITTSER, A Grace Disguise

Yo, tis is just a cry of me heart.. thought of the day.. lost between certainty and uncertainty... only pray for the better... for the good ending!

Anyhow, troubles come and go.. a circle of life... all u gotta do is keep ur head up, and head strong.. for the good ending shall prevail soon Insyaallah. Nevertheless, heart's in misery is hard and very heavy to carry... best option or as i love to put it... Shopping is my zen..!! Not just for me alone of course, everybody got their share.. hehe.. aren't i lovable? nah, kidding... ikhlas from the heart :p.. Let see, what did i get for MYself yesterday? hurm.. well, i got two shoes, a dress and a cd... Walla.. but wut am most happy about is.... My Greatest Hits...So Far, Pink cd! the outer and inlay is xtremely marvellous... cds and dvd concert put in together as well.. pheww...wow... Touched me heart wholeheartedly.. salute to ya PinkMama!! and thank u for the 11 years as musician... I guess you know wht, beside being close to dear Allah, music always keeps me together.. hurm. and shopping... ahahaha.. FREAK OUT!

Pink: Fuckin' Perfect (I Just L.O.V.E tis new track)

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less thank f*kin' perfect,
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're perfect to me...

Oh ya that was my yesterday, today sunday afternoon, santai aje...went out to Giza, for Adam's things...:) next stop, sist wanna singgah to Iq's casa... since he asked to cme by.. Such Lovely meeting for us, kakak, iqram and me... but not for lil adam... Hurm, I wonder why, apa jadi tadi ek? Adam (the ever lovely, kuat gelak, tokwan takde gigi ni) bleh jadi soooo scared of Iqram!!!! penat cebs pujuk... hurm...something wrong, nangis dia, panggil michik... til, mommy dia pun sedih pujuk son dia... so we hafto make a move from there early... huh, tertanya-tanya dlm hati smpi skrg...???

Anyhow, Iq will pop up to our house next, so better luck next time Iq..? MISS YA BTW...

Oh ohh,.., do u knw that, same as me.. Iq pun sibuk mencari Zen.? Same as beberapa org lain juga agaknya.. ketenangan is serenity kan? and for dear Iq, ID is Zen.. have a look at the photos.. (mind that Iq sgt penat, baru pasang water fountain and bedding zen tu... and today is his rest day... so... agak berpakaian santai aje & a little messy looking face & hairdo he is indeed very gorgeous.. no worries laydees..dia tetap kacak dan kocak!! p/s: Congrats Iqram Dinzly fr getting a part in the next SRK, Malaysia..dari dulu dh habaq dah, u two do look alike!! :) all the best babe)

.... and so kat mana i tadi?? oh ya... Many changes since my last visit tho'... still i do liked the house... esp, cos tiada lagi phytons.. tapi ditambahnye pula birds skang ni... cuma saty je masih me and sist tak sedap hati... too gloomy and dark lah sayang oi.. u and chamber u! haiya..

aite, kinna babling je kan? cos mind not so straight thinking rite nw...i wish i kat kerja skang ni, yg penuh dgn workload...or tgh attend class... hahahahaha..boleh tak?

??????? blur...

Bohemian Rhapsody

2011-01-28T01:25:00.000-08:00

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy (Poor boy)
I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows
Doesn't really matter to me, to me

Mama just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life has just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away

Mama, ooh
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye, everybody
I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth

Mama, oooooooh (Anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
Sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

[Guitar Solo]

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, Scaramouch, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me
(Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo Figaro
Magnifico-o-o-o-o
I'm just a poor boy nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity

Easy come, easy go, will you let me go?
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let me go (Will not let you go)
Let me go (Will not let you go) (Never, never, never, never)
Let me go, o, o, o, o
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
(Oh mama mia, mama mia) Mama Mia, let me go
Beelzebub has the devil put aside for me, for me, for me!

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here

[Guitar Solo]
(Oooh yeah, Oooh yeah)

Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me
Any way the wind blows...

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Any way the wind blows... :(

Am shiver in me timber now.. hati hancur, sad, down with the whole situation, this is my story, the consequences. trubulances came like hurricane.. heart-broken, world shatters into pieces, tears in me eyes, led to bad decision... led to my own destruction... up and going the wave keeps battling with me.. sometimes clear winds, sunny days, sumtimes like today, lightning, thunder... Ya Allah,Ya Karim, keep me together, for I know, u have given me so much lately, integrity, wealth, health, power and confidence, please may this only be test for me... for me to finally let go of all things.... please may it be only a lesson. please may money I've earned so very hard for, be worthwhile to solve hutang dunia ini. I Shouldnt fear human, i should be brave.. cos they're no You, doaku, agar ku tabah hadapi semua ini.

Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah fahablii taubatan waghfir, dzunuubii fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
seksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
ampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar........

Shopping is Zen! sumtimes.. ahaks

2011-01-23T06:01:00.000-08:00

Salam, first and foremost this entry is isn't me tryna boasting around! ....But, dear God tuhan je tahu, how tired i am, memecahkan otak everyday fulfilling my new responsibilities,..walaupun setiap hariku, setiap ibadahku sgt bersyukur pada ilahi.. tapi terkadang terjerit batinku... Penatnye Kowt Ya Allah! harap permudahkanlah setiap langkah2ku,.. Jauh sudut hati, Aku kerisauan dgn cabaran baru, amat takut. Ingin menguasai semua dgn baik secepat mungkin ku.. some things u just have to slowly learn and tackle one step at a time. hanya terkadang terasa penat being a leader.. i meant, new task, tough man! very much indeed! yeoww.....

But i remembered sumone dear, once, remind me again just previously of the saying by dear prophet Rasulullah S.A.W., carilah ilmu sampai ke negeri China... i hope him as well, kept that close@heart and his troubled or worries of becoming a good idola and bapa kemerdekaan soon will worked out well in the end. Insyallah. Amin. We only human, we just gotta believe in ourselves. So i'm holding on to that lately.. buka segala buku, mentelaah mana yang dapat membantu... dari dulu pun i just love studying...so it is good that this just never stops for me.. but ya allah tolonglah aku jumpa satu answer ni yang aku perlu... i need it soon, i need to get it submitted!! yikes. :) esp, tomorrow, meeting, deadlines... so well better make this short, rest me eyes cepat, for tomorrow is yet to come!

Anyhow, looking the way things goes lately, i lewat pulang rumah, so my saturday and sunday is the only time for me with family... Sabtu yesterday, i went to work to cracked up my kebuntuan kerja, urgent... but tak lama, i cudnt solved all of it... So i went off early, as on my way back home, i just melayang, lost in myself driving, saying... hey i've been working hard lately, i shuld 've indulged my ownself... heeeee... at least my family been telling me over and over again that I shud be looking more executive and making myself happy. So this fortunate events came to happen whereabout, i felt shopping is indeed a Zen for me, so this time thank God i Say YES to it! is only the way how i appreciate myself, u know, sumlike, pat my own shoulder.. telling to myself.. "hey u've done Great, u shud get sumtin good for urself".

I've been meaning to change my cell. but i wouldn't trade the last one tht i have even for the world, i'll just keep it real close. been looking around for some newbies that mite catch me eyes. Was always wanted an Iphone... but got jemu of the rapidly changing updated version, lagipun Iphone5 dah nak kuar. Ngada jer.. Price almost the same with others that i like. So my final Top 5 was.. IPhone, BlackberryTorch, LG 7, HTC Windows 7 and Samsung Wave Super Amoled! and..... drum roll please...

I took the Samsung Wave HD superAmoled! cos it is just a complete package for me! Foremost it is damn Slick, just like i wanna, same as Iphone + with Vid Call and most importantly it is the only new with High Definition LED! I just love the graphics. It is a HD camera and video recorder in a cell!!! Lagipun, dulu SonyEricsson Walkman, now Samsung Wave... So tetap ada S-W.. for Sayang WINA... ahahahahaha.. nget ngot! ....So hey with unanimous vote from my family... I grab my new baby home! Syukur ya amat and happy.. Walaupun, masih.. agak terchallenged over kecanggihan my own cell... but insyaallah.. I will conquered you man!

I love it.. so whilst today pun cuti.. ere some snap sini snap situ, saje2..

oh ya and this last pic, is our new gift for lil adam... ehehehe... Dia dapat jugak.. me, gma and mommy go dutch buy his brand new grow, ride and learn frm ToysR'us. Nampak simple, tapi it is all in one.. Computerized..Indeed very intellectual!!! Patutle mahal.. hehhe.. bukannye me "kedeks" ngn anak buah sendiri.. gila 'ba alip ba ya' i sayang dia kowt..., kalau boleh me rasa nak bawak balik satu gudang, cos semua best...tapi tak mampu.. ni pun me dah sengket! :p and another thing, byk toys yg i nak beli untuk diri sendiri, wahahahahahahha... but Actually frm me heart, i wanna buy him a cart-car.. ya allah sexy kot.. all black, silver metal, comel.. nakal sgt.. exactly macam naked racing car! i sanggup beli babe, but G-mama and Mommy dia kata ganaz sgt, and he's too little..dangerous! arloo??? apedaa...:(

so akhirnya tiadala racing car buat adam.. untuk masa ini..I dah suruh the attendee kat ToysRUs simpan keta besar itu untuk i... cos I'LL BE BACK!!!! waahhaha..... so finally we brought back an A+ toy... plus with signals, , beribu lagu and macam2 ada...hehhehee!

p/s: dear gma and kakak, still.. kena watch over adam when he hops on tht thang jugak! cos little precious tu tetap masih kecil.. ahhahaa! ngada lah korang!

oklah, nite, me nak chow, gua nak isya' sat.. and rilek2 layan diri di malam ahad!!! salam... muahh!

Pink... It's Not Even A Question!!!!

2011-01-20T16:18:00.000-08:00

Kudos man! Am happy..., very much happy, my much-loved idol is on 2011 idol! the ever talented, Stephen Victor Tallarico a.k.a Steven Tyler, the main man of Aerosmith, the wackiest, gorgeous-beautiful (even with the too much botox, lidah panjang and big pouty mouth! yes, I still, to this moment adored him - x kisah, forever wanna marry him!!!!). Extra Plus this year, Standing in line with Randy Jackson "the Dawg!" on the judges bench, as well as with the ever so beautiful sweet pretty ass latina Jenny on The Block - me fav Jennifer Lopez! Mrs Marc Anthony, ahh, I've just love them since way back, since their relationship but ended after NO ME AMES!!!! sad, but truth be told, endless love birds. do get back together in the end... with TWINS plak now in the family! hehehe... anyway, terpesong a bit bit... so then..,

Dear God, things juts got more sizzler and greater! nuff said! am definitely thrilled to experience this very season. It is indeed a hall of fame - A Superstar of Idol! KUDOS!

What Time is it Now ?

2011-01-18T17:18:00.000-08:00

I couldn't help rolling my eyes and looking at my polo watch quite a few times..

Cursing a fren constantly, minute after minute! For whom berjaya juga paksa me drag me ass down to an event last nite...but siut aje... always.. making me the early bird again! waiting...dahle jiwa kacau kot.. ahahahaha... gugup kot! anyhow, last nite was the highlights for an art event, BMS 2010, it's the closure, appreciation to the winners! which i myself were very much anticipated to see and be a part of as well... but still, i was a little too reluctant early that day, for back & forth thingking, should i go? should i missed this nite? i am extra busy at work! hurm... finally, at my crazee working hours... a bitch fren called me up..! damn, ylah, me answered her! Yes You! forcing me, blackmailing me for the rest of me year if didn't show my butt out there tonight, and as whom yg slalunye janji manis, promised konon, after maghrib gerak... she won't be late this time. But, as we all know... Again... she is late! Blaming Arin pulak tu for driving slow! my ass, i know how arin is.. he's never late! I myself pun was later than him at one of our previous appoinment.

Anyhow, while me heart still pumping like hell inside, hurm awkward feeling and also tryna forget any sad /-tive aura...me silently waited in me car! as i kept calling and cursing a fren through the phone! till, i saw that familiar face, walking by, emerging slowly from the dark... a glimpse of someone i knew best, but lost touch! opps, did i say it right? ehehehe.. anyhow.. awkward juga jumpa awak.. me fav talented artist fren! such happiness seeing you. but tht was tht, just short acquaintance, smiled, laugh... and we went separate ways.

Finally, a buzzer coming from my cell. Yup, they're both here now.. so i stopped my langkah and gladly me waited near the fountain.. actually rindu juga nk jumpa me gurl ni, lama benor dah dia calling texting bitching about me the alam maya, saying me too sombong... so yes, gladly in me heart, i came that nite... but damn... whilst waitiing, waving hand at her from a mere distance, another thing just happened, you know what, when your own heart is actually searching..... you did actually find a glimpse of that someone or his belongings! yikes! elegant looking, black! but, that is it!

end of story... no lah... syioknye, inside, many familiar looking faces.. the best is.. Whom You Hiding!!! encik bard... miss thta one babe.. and others... paling meriah seeing Intan.. love ya girl, and proud of ya! and yes to dear peter as well.. was a good chat we had! i'll be coming to visist soon! most definitely..

whilst, us gurls sibuk mengumpat and sharing silly joke banter.. the announcement was on. ahahah.. terpinga kot.. dah menang ke? silly, me and intan gelak... i said, "i can't believe you don't know babe?" she replied " she can't believe me don't know? tak kawan again..." ahahaha.. silly both laughed! :p intan.. intan...

finally me, senyapkan diaorg, interested to know... and bila azam's name was announced! yuhoooo gila kot.. chenta hati mak menang... ahahahahahahahahaha! congrats babe!!!! i love ya... wuhoooooo...tanhniah for ya “Sudah Terang Lagi Bersuluh" creative indeed, eerie frankenstein slayer!!!!

and then back-to-back pulak tu..? Next..

Drum Roll please....

"The Way It All Works by Haslin Ismail.. wins BMS 2010" U're the man babe! "wuhoooooo.. " me shouted me heart out from a distance! gila kot! Katun..! katun..! katun...!

so on, we went straight up to see karya, first to Azam... loving it.... next fav.. wow Nan See's, urs is genius! and near to end, me layan artwork Haslin.. at tht moment he was being interviewed.. so if u saw a roll of his footage senyum to someone! that was me! bongok katun, tgh interview boleh lambai org lain! hehehhe.. well that's make him uniquely him.. aite?

anyhow... had a great nite, but still can't run from the fact that am damn exausted, so then forth me make me wise early move.. and reached home an hour later dlm gelap, at a long winding road... yikes!!!

the blower's daughter..

2011-01-17T21:35:00.000-08:00

Poor singer/songwriter

Why it lingers to me? Straight to me heart...

been singin on my way back & forth to work these days.

Fool, it is just a SONG!

but damn straight is so very beautiful and poetic!

Could it be... such a sad story for young damien?

they say... " is about a young Damien who thinks he's in love with his clarinet teacher's daughter. She doesn't return his feelings and turns down his advances. He attempts to go on with his life and it goes fine, except he still thinks of her sometimes. The shorter story refers to the fact that she didn't return his feelings (no love, no glory) so their story ends sooner than he had hoped. When he says we'll both forget the breeze, it makes us think of a summer breeze, or a summer fling, so possibly they had a physical encounter. Colder water is like being splashed in the face with cold water or being hit with reality. The blower's daughter is obviously his clarinet teacher's daughter, a pupil in denial is Damien not wanting to admit that there is no future for them. I think as Damien gets older he realizes that he didn't actually love her, and that she treated him poorly. This is the loathing and the leaving it all behind. He realized it wasn't really love, and he'll get over it when he meets someone new. "

Could it be?

And so it is

Just like you said it would be

Life goes easy on me

Most of the time

And so it is

The shorter story

No love, no glory

No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes...

And so it is

Just like you said it should be

We'll both forget the breeze

Most of the time
And so it is

The colder water

The blower's daughter

The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes off of you

I can't take my eyes off you

I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?

Did I say that I want to

Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you

I can't take my mind off you

I can't take my mind off of you

I can't take my mind off you

I can't take my mind...

My mind...my mind...

'Til I find somebody new

D-day when we finally get together.. riuh rendah!!!

2011-01-16T01:25:00.000-08:00

Saturday, 20110115

It was great day gurlfwen.

1100 hrs - me getting ready to pick up me best fren ilut, inviting her for lunch at our very home here in Sg.Buloh. Had made this plan out with her from last week, cos x sempat to spend my time with her that very same week.. cos me too sibuk at work as well as mencari her wedding present kat IKEA minggu tu.. ahahahahahaks!!! So change of plan, i've invited her instead here for lunch at mi casa, lagi better.. bolehla dia jumpa mama and kakak as well. Her so called family angkat kan?? anyhow... also did invited liza and mya as well. but mya cudn't make it.. that girl sibuk siapkan all her persiapan in getting married this mid-year.. So i guess many things on her mind rite now, better jangan kacau.. besides, just us.. did, do fine...

Soon as mama getting ready with her cooking, (wanna know what she's making?) well it is my request actually - to do her famous spaghetti and caramel custard pudding! urm yummy.. i just bought the perkakas... and walla she just got it done beautifully! and so, terus i kena kerah pi ambik ilut cepat2... semua tak sabar benar jumpa ilut again...anyways.. so here the story goes..

Seeing my petrol is half empty, so my first stop was to Petronas dulu, and i tot of going straight after tht, but knowing ilut dah begitu lama, confirm pompuan nih tak bangun lagi,.. confirm juga last nite, she went out clubbing!!! so wise move erwina, making tht wake up call to her.. knowing dia mmg baru terjaga when me called, i asked her to hit the shower fast, as i'm making my way there! garang kot i? hehhehe.. tindakan bijak seterusnya is to ambush umah liza dulu, culik dia and maira to teman i terus.. so takyah lah mak buyong hafto drive to my place walaupun hanya sekangkang kera aje jauhnye. eloklak, pooi pun ada kat rumah, izinkan she following me... and suh bawak maira sekali.. cos ayahnye nk time alone melukis.. ok pooi pegilah enjoy melukis tuh, btw, karya samjis tu.. wa mau chotta leh... fav saya kut??!!! hehe.. then so forth.. we went ahead with the journey frm SBCR to Dang Wangi,..

1300 hrs - wow gila kot saturday in Kl, sejak pindah ni, always play around damansara aje.. i guess sebulan kot tak masuk kl.. and saturdays some how.. terasa jem sungguh.. but we made it there.. called ilut to hurried dwn... and as soon as i saw that bloody bitch SO-CALLED married gurlfwen of mine terloncat model aka victoria beckham dpn my car... terus jeritan and hugging moments goin on.. always the best feeling! she introduces us to her adik ipar, which is intan... lagi mereng.. and as usual... 3 pompuan sarawak in my car.. rasa nk campak aje semua keluar kete.. eh, did i forget, 4 laydees rupenyer.. cik maira kenit kita? terlupa? hehehe.. but as usual, 3 mulut tempayan sarawak lawan 1.. so my conversation aje replied in bahasa or english.. dema hampeh...go on jer.. kedak ya lah, ibohla, madah cam ya... kimak ek.. hehehe.. keep on yabbling sarawakian.. choy!!! but still, the conversation 2-3 ways ni dh biasa and always works for us...hahaha.. yg i tahu,... muka kodiat, gambong bujat! wahaha..

1400 hrs - damn it, terasa jauhlah pulak heading back to my place... but one cool thing... bleh wa gelak dulu tak...? bleh la2 boleh la? ilut is just the same ilut.. dah kawen pun kena kawal ketat hehehehe... as she enters with us, terus kena report call hubby dia.. The hubby -'ewan' knew she was out to lunch with me and family.. and he was thrilled about it as well.. so yeah, that was my first conversation dgn my bestgurl husband! he sounded cool! baik aje.. happy for u guys babe!!

aite, then finally we arrived at my housing area.. intan and ilut was just in love of the area.. goody they likey as me likey as well... and as soon as we sampai depan rumah.. mangkas ni terus buat bising... yeah, poser we did shoot more photos. again. semuanya untuk ALIBI. si ilut,...kah kah kah.. cibai betul kawan aku nih..

Anyways.. masuk dalam ajer,.. terus she lari naik atas cari mama.. and foremost awal tadi juga harus berlawan mulut rindu ngn kak leen dolok.. yeah.. hahaha sweet moments.. good ones.. i feel like there's many to tell, too many lawak things and conversation just take place.. bout married life, anak, sex, work, things and sorts... sharing thoughts.. good and bad..funny and of everyone was acclaiming how delicious mama's food are.. siap semua sapu licin bungkus bawak balik lagi... heheheh... but how bout i just being kedekut, and wrote this as simple as it cud be.

1600 hrs: them two laydees have to go off early, wanna do some final shopping before pulang ahad malam, and also yeah, ilut ada ngedate lain later.. hampeh.. mak tak masuk campur noks!! anyways, so after lovely goodbyes from my family, thereforth mula balik journey to kl.. first drop hantar mak buyung and maira pulang... and we continues!

otw, just me and ilut, and intan yg cantik dan gila terbaring kat belakang, enjoying the ride home and chatting.. she asked whats next for me, when is my turn? she asked whether am still waiting for the married man? I said no lah.. i dunno, all i knw is he gave me up.. so he is no better man. i'm trying to be happy.. that's all i'm doing. smiling always.. mata berkaca sket,.. but am ok! and ..... all she cud reply after that is, do i remember still her relationship with a married man as well, just before she finally with Ewan and got married?.. saying.. "i love the man very much too, but he is just to selfish of a man. and the first wife always think that us the third person is a bitch, takde maruah, and laki itu pula terus sanggup berubah buat kita macam tiada maruah, lupa semua.. bila comes down to choosing things, forget us easily.. and last sekali hilang! senang aje..! nafsu semata! bodoh.. Untuk kita, this will only caused trouble.. so aku pun blah... cos aku takut kena santet dgn first wife dia!"

Ahahahahahahahahahaah.. ilut, ilut... in my head masa tuh.. wow, she's really and always is a tough girl, and as hard i try to believe that dia mmg sayang gila kt kat ex dia tuh, and i could feel she sedih as well, i kenal tht feeling..Cos u trust tht person so much! lain rasanye, commitment yg kita juga buat, tapi senang pula untuk dilupakan. hurm... but still ilut.. u no hallah, cos u dari dulu mmg byk laki kot.. ahahaha.. anyways gurlfwen i love u to death! and thank goodness u found ur darling angel Ewan at last.. wish u all the happiness in the world til anak cucu! huhu..

and as for me.. maybe benar, zaman sekarang tiada siapa kot akan percaya keihklasan atau situasi pihak ketiga...diaorg tak mungkin nampak kita.. tiada perlu looking back. pasti ada yang lebih baik.. kerna suami yang baik tidak akan menzalimi, adalah suami yang mampu bersikap adil, mampu memberi dan mendengar, penyabar sebenarnya, pembimbing anak-anak dan juga pembimbing tiang agama kita, kemudian barulah dia segalanya untuk kita.. jiwa raga kita. ini yg i dapat adaptasi from tanyalah ustaz pagi tadi..

Hurm, anyhw.. so now i feel like, wanna cuba proposal ilut and intan.. them wanna kenalkan i with this one guy... gila i takut kot.. mcamana nak mula balik? but hey.. they are proud of me, for am no longer smoking as well as sy dah fully bertudung! kecuali kat rumah le.. hehehehe.. dgn style iranian lagi.. chewaah, iranian konon..??? hahahahaa.. anyhw, now all i need to do is.. mempercantikkan diri.. to cari pasangan hidup.. haha.. bleh tak? doakan me pls? altho' atas keizinan allah swt, insyaallah. (maafkan picas dlm rumah...last kt showing pics like these.. at least, i'll try! sebab tu x heran pun walau rambut serabai... wahahaha!)

1700 hrs: reachin May Tower.. a little sad feeling saying goodbye.. sad cos tak berkesempatan to hantar her to KLIA malam ahad, cos now i dah tinggal jauh sngt. so that was that.. that was our goodbye. She wanna arrange tix for me to kuching next.. i have to visit her there soon she said.. Yes, it is always in my planning, but now rather too busy at work! but will do someday, and i'll be seeing u soon my dear fren..

1800hrs : journey reaching home was rather lonely...

'Asap rokok best-fren 666 Jin & Saitan!' I wanna cium heaven, InsyAllah...

2011-01-13T19:48:00.000-08:00

dearest centa hati...

2011-01-12T01:56:00.000-08:00

Ada Beran? ehehe..

This is love.. love you much kiddo!

(Tq sista, tahu aje mommy adam text michik. Agak tersentuh jiwa terus di office! Michik tau, michik asyik kerja lewat lately...last nite pun only menyelinap kiss adam senyap2, tis morning keluar sejurus subuh. Sejak menyandang jawatan baru ni, iye mmg penat.. tapi tetap syukur. Ok siap arrange programmes jap, and terus pulang ok!) p/s: bukannye saje2 sanggup mengulat blog ni jap, cuma merehatkan otak ajer, and adoiyai... kalah dgn emosi belakangan ini.. bila nak strong balik ni.. I need time out lah.. Need to fly!!!!

done for now.. lepas ni back-to-back meeting lagi..

September (Leave This Town) ~ Daughtry

2011-01-10T16:10:00.001-08:00

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Fever Part II - It's a Big World.. Soon I will forget, soon I will forgive, and then maybe I'll find happy for me...

2011-01-09T02:04:00.000-08:00

.... There's just something heart dare not share. it took a while to eat it all in alone.. Tears can dry...even if it took a mere month passing you by... but yes, slowly, it dried up in the end.

.... From that evening I left that painful ingatan, heartache drive away, pulling me far away from a face of sumone of dear love - whom I dreamed of; tears, heart-broken, harsh words he thrown out to you where u doa no one would be ever be said to that way, EVER AGAIN!... but how would 'one' whom gave love unconditionally ever predict this cud happen again? from that moment on, masih I ingat, I have no place to go, to run, dare not share and so i hide..., cried all nite out alone at a strange place. And with my sad eyes, I can't even walk under the sun the very next day... bengong juga pikir balik.. painful, glaring mata ini, "damn i lost my sun-shades.. where is it when u need one huh?" anyhow, cared less, the pain of my eyes is definitely un-comparable to the pain i hold inside. nobody knws wut i wallow in self-pity that day.

.... Sleepless nite beberapa malam ke beberapa minggu, but thank god.. iman ku masih kuat, slowly gather my thoughts finding ways and strength. Lagipun, masalah politic di office ketika itu sedang hangat menular.. ending up, am the last one standing in my dept. lain diberhentikan. So, saya sahut cabaran itu, untuk bekerja creatively sendirian. tapis semua yg tidak penting, slowly, alhamdulillah, I could be able to manage it alone.

.... Therefore, if that couldn't break me down, tak patut aku akur pada kekalahan yang lain. I made a promise to myself, to everyday put on a mask, a straight face and go on. Never thot i cud promise myself and to actually do it, not a single cry no more for this lost, and further moving on up, never ever look back again, to never give in to this lost, cause deep inside i know am better than this. how can i not be?? regardless of what he have said., kdgkala yes, masih lingers in my ears, sayup hati for making me feel like am no better woman.. but hey, kalau benar kata-katamu. tak mungkin aku yg kini dihormati pada usia ku ini, atas usaha ku sendiri.. diberi peluang melangkah kedepan atas pembawakan diri.. therefore i know now, not me who failed us.. it was u who failed ME! kau yang memungkiri janji, bukan aku... kau yang melupakannya... bukan aku...hanya aku yang inginkan, agar kita berbahgia ke anak cucu... so yeah, stupid making the same mistake twice, damn fool, not even twice... it was way more thn tht huh? silly me, thought of when kita kena musibah ilahi sebelum2 ini, we would grow up, kita makin ingat tuhan, and things semakin matters. kita maksudkan apa yang kita luahkan. kadangkala, i feel strongly to ask, me juga human, ada perasaan, ada nyawa, why hurt me? why me? cause you do know how..., i love you... and so forever i will.. but i guess, when u're wrong about someone, you are just wrong forever about him. never will he change. no matter hw hard you pray he would become your pure guidance and pure love.

.... Cos you know wut, things are just what it is! alahai...

aite, better stop mumbling before hati mendiam diri kembali.. pelan2 kan... insyaallah, ada nanti kebahagiaan untuk saya nanti. as for now. i'm sorry for writing these. cud it be feverish act, cud it be me sad!

salam..

Big World by Emilia

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much...

my saturday nite fever...

2011-01-08T05:30:00.000-08:00

Salam,

hurm.. today's plan for best fren day out bertukar to menjadi me day with lil adam again... not that saya tak mahu bersosial lagi., since.. u know...! cuma, the truth.., i was looking forward to today actually to hang out with Ilut... yup she's in KL... til next week only before she balik kuching! and yes, ini kira make-up to my janji yg tak kesampaian to showed up at her wedding day last year!!! again sorry gurlfwen... anyhow, this plan will be make possible to tomorrow insyallah..

Wut to do! woke up saje, subuh tadi, terasa makin badan panas, and batuk2, haiya... feverish pula pagi ini... i guess semenjak merangkap manager ni (ehehehe.. senyum simpul bila menyebut ini), too much work was put on my shoulder and have to organized alone kini activities thrughout 2011.. travelling seminars lagi... wow.. btw, have i told u, alahamdulillah saya akan masuk sekolah kembali...if i happened to have pen about this down in my blog here than i do apologized, but if i havent..yet? so yes, i will masuk sekolah balik... higher learning Photography and Creative Anim... manakata.. bertambah ketatlah schedule monday to sunday saya... still, syukurku padamu ya Allah.. Am ready for the challenge and rezeki u're giving!

Alrighty as i said, am such feverish today...i know how i kena, berjangkit budak2 office nih, confirm!.. so i guess i wanna rehat now. but before tht.. as usual, layan sket nak act muhammad adam firdaus today!!! sempat i snap a few... my badammm2x saya... ubat penawar hati. okie dokies, ending nw.. salam.

Yup this cracks me up...! Principally when he says about them french and germans!..

2011-01-05T17:20:00.000-08:00

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Rowan Atkinson: “Devil Sketch”

Hello, nice to see you all again.
Now, as the more perceptive of you have probably realised by now, this is Hell, and I am
the Devil. Good evening. You can call me Toby, if you like – we try and keep things informal
here, as well as infernal. That’s just a little joke.
Now, you’re all here for eternity, which I hardly need tell you is a sod of a long time, so you
get to know everyone pretty well by the end, but for now I’m going to have to split you up
into groups. Are there any questions? Yes?
Um, no, I’m afraid we don’t have any toilets. If you’d read your Bible you would have seen
that it was damnation without relief. So, if you didn’t go before you came then I’m afraid
you’re not going to enjoy yourself very much … but then, I believe that’s the idea.
Right, let’s split you up then.
Can you all hear me still?
CAN YOU HEAR ME AT THE RACK?
All right, off we go …
Murderers, over here. Looters and pillagers – over there please, thieves if you could join
them, and bank managers …
Fornicators, if you could step forward – my God there are a lot of you. Could I split you up
into adulterers and the rest? Adulterers if you could just form a line in front of that small
guillotine there.
Okay …
Americans, are you here? Look, I’m sorry about this, apparently God had some fracas with
your founding fathers and damned the entire race into perpetuity. He sends particular
condolences to the Mormons who He realises put in a lot of work. That’s the way the wafer
crumbles. The Iranians, I’m afraid, can’t be with us – someone’s been holding them in
purgatory for about nine months.
Sodomites, over there against the wall.
Atheists! Atheists? Over here please. You must be feeling a right bunch of charlies.
Okay, and Christians! Christians? Ah yes, I’m sorry, I’m afraid the Jews were right.
Okay, Moonies, maniacs, marmite eaters, male models, masochists, mass murderers and
masseurs, if you could take a pew at the back - with the Methodists that is.
Now, you’re the lot who used to kill whales, is that right? Ah, yes, I must remember - I’ve
got some strips to tear off you bastards later.
Everyone who saw Monty Python’s “Life of Brian” – I’m afraid He can’t take a joke after all.
Alright now, one final thing. We’re trying to implement some kind of exchange scheme
with the Lord God Almighty, or Cliff as we know him. Some of you will travel up and have a
decade in heaven and we’re having some angels down here. Now, I hardly need tell you that
in heaven you will be expected to behave in an exemplary manner, so I hope you will do the
exact opposite – tear off their wings, use their haloes for frisbee practice, that sort of thing.
Well, I have to go now, unfortunately, but Beelzebub here will show you the ropes ... and
the chains, and electrodes.
And I’d just like to leave you with a favourite joke of mine, if I may. Quite apt to the
circumstances, I think, which goes something like:
“Knock, knock.
Who’s there?
Death.
Death wh…”

hehe.. ain't it a CRACKER! loving it.. for those who've heard of it before, KUDOS to ya, altho' Lame for me lah.. lambat sket, but hey better late than never rite! anyhow, wut's up with me and Mr. talented Bean of ours...

Well it's his BIRTHDAY today... 6th January, so ni kira in celebration of his Big day lah .. a Genius Man to me... so happy birthday Mr.Bean!!! and also shout out to Liza Abdullah.. happy birthday to ya... and to all beautiful, comel, living creatures that celebrating a birthday today... warmest wishes to all..

p/s: teruk betul jam ini pagi.. i think i've done 9 roads violation! all the Wrong-Way Driving! wut to do,.. baik punya cilok! tetap kelewatan @ 8.15pm.. cett.. tapi it turns out... I'm early! wakakakaka...
aite, kerja yok! tanggungjawab makin tinggi now! so..

salam,
erwina

Yappy 8 months... !!! (';')

2011-01-03T23:03:00.000-08:00

even a tough busy women, with higher responsibility, kdgkala shedding a tear once in blue moon juge.. :(

2011-01-03T17:43:00.000-08:00

Melly : Menapak jalan yang menjauh

Tentukan arah yang ku mau
Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
Yang membuat hati lara

KD : Didekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Melly : Cinta.... tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

KD : Aku..... junjung petuahmu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hatinya dulu berlayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

Melly : Didekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya

KD : Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Melly : Cinta.... tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata

Tak ingin terulang lagi

Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

KD : Aku..... junjung petuahmu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hatinya dulu berlayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

Melly : Bagaimanapun hidup hanya cerita
KD : Cerita tentang meninggalkan dan yang ditinggalkan

Both : Cinta...........

Walau nk wish New Year sekalipun, adam tetap ada section in my posting... hehe!

2010-12-29T19:15:00.000-08:00

Anak saudara saya... jantung hati saya... yay! yay! btw, wanna know sumthing...

he ain't calling me Michik...tapi...,dia jerit my name ADIKKKKKKKK... boleh tak?

like mama n kakak did. hantu kak limah betul lah adam nih...

"Michik lah adam, not Adik!" jenuh nk betulkan nih... hee. :)

He ain't Heavy, he's my baby Nephew...

2010-12-23T00:38:00.000-08:00

Like Michik, Like Adam ! :) copy cat!!

Gangguan... G-MAMA

erm, pley, pleh!!

and so it is, just like you said it would be, life goes easy for me,

MOST OF THE TIME...

It Was Just a Dream... :(

2010-12-19T21:17:00.000-08:00

>> ... Music Heals .... <<

Cracks In The Crystal Ball

sudah terpindah :)

the harder you fall, the higher you bounce

Love is more than saying I Love You !!

MODE : Here we go again... :)

:: design :: comfort :: performance ::

The day that changes everything… my whole spectrum of view

//Break-Away.. Fix You//

Iqram Dinzly Birthday Bash, 8:30pm @ PNB Darby Park

Slash and Adam Levine Perform Their Song 'Gotten'

Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven (Live Earls Court 1975)

Photoblog Aidilfitri 2011

We're just another ordinary family

Colmar Tropicale : Medieval French village and Picturesque surroundings

Seafood @ Tanjung Harapan... yummy

Perginya Seorang Seniman Negara Tersohor..

He is more than a leading figure in Malaysian Modern Art --- An idol, a father figure

oh sunday..,

"From the People to the People" Is that right?

she's back.... !!! danger.

Driving around Sg.Buloh-Rawang

Japan Earthquake and Tsunami Relief Efforts - The IKA® Family‘s Contribution

Splashes ere and there..

...the next thing i knew, i was sitting on a hospital bed :(

Lil Adam's new Chevrolet! Happy one year old my cute angel!

it has been a while

Zoom Out, Zoom In, Zoom Out with Love

salam dari Lahore...

memupuk kemesraan ~ M'sia NZ

A Doctor in the House

Mentari Merah di ufuk eropah...

smoke gets in my eyes.. pedihnye!

My Lab Rat , me smallest top model - the best

Farewell Roslee - Penentuan Geng Sayur!

vroom vroom... wahh, am in love!

Pssst.. sy budak baru belajar..

luruh hati, MuQadam demam panas! :(

Insane_ Nocturnal!

Nak Buat Otak-otak terbuat Satah Udang.. hehe!

Kepadamu Kekasih..

Set your goals high, and don't stop till you get there. ~ Bo Jackson

Erwina and Associates; a retinue... THE BEST

Welcome to my silly life..

Cracks In The Crystal Ball

Pink: Fuckin' Perfect (I Just L.O.V.E tis new track)

Bohemian Rhapsody

Shopping is Zen! sumtimes.. ahaks

Pink... It's Not Even A Question!!!!

What Time is it Now ?

the blower's daughter..

D-day when we finally get together.. riuh rendah!!!

'Asap rokok best-fren 666 Jin & Saitan!' I wanna cium heaven, InsyAllah...

dearest centa hati...

September (Leave This Town) ~ Daughtry

Fever Part II - It's a Big World.. Soon I will forget, soon I will forgive, and then maybe I'll find happy for me...

my saturday nite fever...

Yup this cracks me up...! Principally when he says﻿ about them french and germans!..

Yappy 8 months... !!! (';')

even a tough busy women, with higher responsibility, kdgkala shedding a tear once in blue moon juge.. :(

Walau nk wish New Year sekalipun, adam tetap ada section in my posting... hehe!

He ain't Heavy, he's my baby Nephew...

It Was Just a Dream... :(

Yup this cracks me up...! Principally when he says about them french and germans!..