Splashes ere and there..

huhu.., lil' adam with new totoy again! :)

Disebabkan Mommy adam tersangat manjakan anak dia!! again, new pool.. although damn cute, this play pool, siap ada fountain and slides lg.. sedikit hampa, TERKECIK sedikit dr pool yg the first one we bought! ahahaha, all salah Mommy x baca manual betul2, michik tak tau, michik chip in bayo ajer!!! lantak, ayah balik nanti sure bising y terkecik sikit, kunun this time nk beli EXTRA big pool! ahahahaa.. G-ma pun dah pitam, but sia bersalah jugak, masa beli semalam, she agrees into it.. Anyhow, design wise, This pool is cute and mmg fun! :) pendek kata, kita korek buat pool jelah kat laman rumah! ahahaha, susah sgt, ni confirm beli lagi next time nih.. hahahaha! :) ALL for Adam. and as usual, tiap weekend, if am around, kena bk adam spin in his wheel, mommy rajin manjakan anak dia sgt, so michik enjoy the fun shoot some little more!

...the next thing i knew, i was sitting on a hospital bed :(

Sitting in a hospital bed waiting on the doctor for my first admission results; "yikes, i have infection in my lung, causing to respiratory tract infection. I knew i had it bad this time, for i hardly can move that Thursday night, the headache and fever is killing me. Talks about being tired from work, well as my new responsibilities taking charge in my life, I indeed had spent most of my hours thinking or doing ONLY matters of work. I might have not rest enough these last two months. it does seems that my Monday to Sunday rather was occupied with work and classes. Eventually, akhirnya me collapsed juga. The Doctor says; this infection could happen to anyone, a virus in the air.. from my blood test taken, everything was normal, from my X-Ray, it says lung is healthy.. infected but healthy, and heart is SMALL, but within normal range... ahahhahaha.. "my heart is small" byk sgt sedih kowt, jantungku mengecut jadinye..huh,  i think. anyhow, unbearable with my pain that Friday noon, i finally was admitted to room 268 at Damansara Specialist, Taman Tun. My first 20 minutes in jer, terus kena drip water, for I dah tak lalu makan that time, so i need my nutrition to fight the fever.. Well, if you guys were there, you could see that my food served were wasted. i hardly touches it. Then came the next round, after an hour or so... for the highest dosage of antibiotics, dear God, it is so painful.. i almost thought this might be how's the chemothreaphy feels like. Painful drop running through my blood vein. My fever was still as high as it can be. Not going down at all. at this point, my family thinks that i was a GONER. i myself thinks that way, but alhamdulillah, after few nights of fighting and suffering the pain, the fever finally barge running down. After few nights of feeling of vomiting everytime the medicine was infused inside of me, which i had few bottles of medicine for the cure, hardly counts it, too many session. Not to mention few blood tests.

I still remember, the family of IKA came per group visiting me, it was so sweet with the bouquet of flowers and fruit basket; it was lovely seeing faces of my big boss, canny, mayble, martina, murali, zakhiri, raffiee, ariff, fabian, kamarul, zan, mia, fadli and the rest coming to see me, although i was so very sick at that time, i hardly talks to them, neither i could make any joke. But in my heart, i thanked them for their concern and apology guys for my bad news.

Quietly day after another, nothing else i can do beside lying on my hospital bed, while eyes and ears wide open.. awaiting for the nurse to come in to either pass me my tablet medicine or to again change my liquid of medicine throuugh the infusion. For as i said this is what i most scared of, being japped day by day, hours by hours, painful, my vein started to swallen up, massive pain, pocking through my vein, mashaallah, dugaan ilahi. Thank goodness, i had a chance to change room to better at 272, for it is bigger, and more relaxed for is not overcrowded... and my auntie next door, is so helplessly sick, i have become the unattending nurse for her... hehehee.. helping her whenever she sounded like dying, ahhahahaa.. She seem to be really in pain. Sadly huh?

After few days, finally i feel like eating again. Thanks to my beloved mum and sista, who has been day nightly rotating sleeping on the chair while taking care of me, for mostly i was so weak in bed. They have been pure angel to me, i do not how to repay their deeds to me. But deep in heart, i thanked god, for you have given me such a beautiful loving family, for when i'm weak, they have been strong for me.. jadinya, apa lagik, akan saya kerja keras lagi, supaya tiap2 ujung tahun, i dapat bawak satu family bercuti ke luar negara :) tahun ini, rasanya macam nk buat plan to BALI, as i bincangkan dengan mama sepulangnye dari hospital for my follow up checkup td, wow... cantiknya bali.

Ok ok, am still on drugs here, therefore, not much idea to be writing down, now, lil adam pula dah jangkit demam with me, cos hari2 kena usung gi hospital, tian dia. But he is my strength, i cried one time at the hospital bukan sebab sakit, but sebab i missed Adam so badly. Tiap2 malam dok tgk gmbr2 dia yg i post kat my blog and facebook. ahahahah. teruklah michik ni. Asyik rindu chenta hati dia ajer. :(

Anyhow, wut am trying to say is that, i gotta go now, nk rest jap.. monday dah mula kerja balik, yes confirm byk keje tertunggak! aiyaiyai.. :p so guys, keep your health-line good, jaga diri and love urself and love your family, and jom keje keje keje carik duit! ahahahhaa.. :)

salam, xoxo
Erwina

 

Lil Adam's new Chevrolet! Happy one year old my cute angel!

Salam,

as of tonite, abg mad saya will officially be One Year Old, dgn hanya dua batang gigi. my lil nephew is looking so damn cute, aduh tak tahan aku everytime melihat anak saudara sendiri, sentiasa ketap gigi! i mean me, i sentiasa ketap gigi nengok dia. In celebrating his birthday tonite..., bukanlah celebrate ape sgt, in showing love towards him and making him happy on his birthday for being such an adorable smart boy --- but yet oh so very NOTTY, ... michik hadiahkan a striking red Chevrolet remote control car on your birthday.. huhu, yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! dari saat bawak balik from kedai ajer, adam asyik tak sabar nk masuk dah dlm keta dia. Actually, me, mama and kakak lagi le tak sabar nk put him in his car. Oh ya, Gma adam turut chip in for this gift juga, anything for cucu kesayangan dia ni.. although michik dia ler penyumbang terbesar... hehe!!! tambah beberapa rat je lagi dah boleh beli satu lagi Lense camera michik! :) hiks! tp xpe, it is so worth it... ini hadiah ikhlas from all of us. Bila terfikir masa otw back dari kedai keta adam, wow, mmg kami sgt manjakan adam. br one year old, dia dah dapat keta ni, i do not know lah, later apa pulak gift yg boleh top this one out, hehe!!!

but yg penting, he is so happy with his car, really happy with it, pagi ni je, bangun awal dah sebut vroom vroom, Q untuk bawak dia keluar main agaknye.. at last Gma bagi main kat tepi rumah je, itupun after dipujuk, semalam lg best, main dlm umah aje.. tian adam. at least today better sket, awal pagi adam dh dapat main kat luar.. happy jer him! actually michik dia yg terlebih happy, cos at the same time dpt snap few shots of him in his chevy... huhu! by the way, at this moment, I AM SO IN LOVE WITH MY CAMERA!!! terima kasih ya allah... syukur alhamdulillah, namun, tiada lah simpanan ku untuk tabung moto bulan ini. Oh ya, I was thinking a while untuk ambil a small Mac, untuk mudahkan I travel around with it,  but in the end, I satisfied myself with a white small mini hp! wahai Mac book air, anda terlalu cantik untuk dipakai, but not that important for now!! at least now i have two things tht i love, with a price of one... hehe, more or less lah, lebih sket lah dari budget yg ditetapkan pd awalnye... anyhow, I really won't bargain for more now..syukur!

so here yee... a few shots from adam's wild ride... ahahhaa, xde maknenye wild...tepi umah aje... as for Now, we guna remote dulu, lepas ni when dia dah besar sket, dia tekan lah minyak and drive sendiri... tp with our supervision of course! nak mampos, kang tak pasal anak sedara wa, terover ganas laju turun bukit... hehe..

untuk langkah2 keselamatan, blanky fluff-fluff dia ada je diselitkan and a pillow.. kids dun follow tis at home! make sure u mommy is around with ya.. ps: Sassy juge terselit hehe.. :) x pasai2 kan.. huhu.. ciao.. as of tomoro I will be back to my busy life at work...

it has been a while

Salam all, ...feels like quite a while that I've been gone kan, i mean from here,... if anyone noticed lah, shut down me blog, staying low.. for ONE gud reason; i was away just too very busy working here and there, plus minus carrying the weight of my new job responsibilities, at work my life now seem to be all packed and filled with hectic schedules. Not just tht, hari2 pecahkan otak ni triple the efforts before! Namun saya sgt bersyukur ke hadrat ilahi, alhamdulillah atas rezeki yang Allah bagi. Walaupun pada mulanya.. mashallah, tuhan shj yg tahu, tentangan colleagues lain yg tak mahu kerjasama..ya lah, saya ni dari creative department dan masih agak junior, tiba2 diberi peluang mengendalikan dua division designing dan sales coordination. Saya langkah beberapa org ke tahap ini... Bg sy, i see this as an opportunity, untuk berjaya lebih jauh, kepercayaan big big boss, and i know i must have done something right, along the way and for that i do proud of myself. Tp saya juga sedar, dgn ini maka akan ada pada awalnya, senior yg mengata, saying i wont survived, i tak layak, and many more. I also know that, susahnya nk make a stand yg saya di sini bukan untuk menunjukkan kehebatan sendiri or to show who's the boss,  that is  so not me...for i am plain me, Am the joker kt mana pun, but when it comes to work, i like to be the best, and i worked my ass off!!! and saya sahut cabaran ini kerna tanggungjawab yg diberikan, untuk gear up the team, work hard untuk hapuskan bad log, and for us to work well and accelerate in the end. Yes, my post is direct under MD & Sales Director, and am before Manager. Wow, post tu nampaknye sedap didengar, tapi. i asked for being Jr.. for in my heart and eyes.. i see this as Byk ruang for me to make mistakes, learn by own mistakes, learn from people and byk ruang juga untuk me perform good. itu sahaja, so lately, i have to say that... Alhamdulillah juga, my stand was  heard, people could see who i really am, for i didn't change a bit,  am still that erwina.. bertekak dgn corporate manager lain pada mulanya, kemudian, they came to me saying, i did a good job ambil alih, and they're proud of me!.. hati aku ya allah, gembira dan bersyukur ya amat hari itu.. and now seem to be there's better room to work well togther. Altho' mmg pada awalnye, i did once or twice cry out to some hearts, ttg susahnye nk ambil hati kawan untuk bekerjasama! i yang kena buli tau... uhuhu, cos u know me lah, org tak mau buat tak pe, biar i yang buat! :P But lega, pheww bestnya... now that moment has passes me by and am here to do much better each day! talking about making things better, yikes Cik Ruby pun dah bising tu.. "Blogging is not your working sheet dear!!!" I janji nk follow up update my worksheet for meeting esok, tp tak bukak2 lagi semalam ngn hari ini.. semalam sibuk shopping hehe...today sibuk main ngn adam :) 

oh ya, reason KEDUA i lay low from blogging, well, i gotta say i was kinna sedih of a cheesy remark made by my EX/close fren/whtever we are to each other bfore, i don't even know! Altho' u know me well, i always think of good of u man, but I guess U did NOt! I heard u saying things about me still being with my other ex? aiyaiyai.. ape nih? and remark ambik laki org lain pulak? tak baik tau.. mana u dgr semua ni? hurm.. am i that bad to your eyes? So dear ex's, I am not (believe it or not?), i saw u searching urself / ur name in here many times, but let me just be frank, i do miss ya, i miss ur art, U're my most fav artist dari dulu sampai sekarang, but am disappointed with your attitude lately, maybe awak dah hebat, tho' why would you say things? hurm, anyhow.. even that I cared less dah now, actually  at first menggangu juge, lama lepas tu, i fikir maybe u tersalah baca sumwhere in here.., i dunno wut happened? But one thing u shud know... am here.. human, busy, but still living, better life these days, good health.. but never did i change, my heart, myself in and out is still the same.. U can always call and ask me personally? rather thn u know, berckp burok.. hurm, say things to one another to another! Alemak, kuciwa gue with u.

Tp, as usual myself, i forgive ya...disappointed but i forgive & forget! therefore ...SPREAD LOVE to ya! Akhir kata, dear Encik dari Johor, saya masih single, di sini dan despite my heartbreaking love life dulu, Syukur alhamdulillah saya happy! I think my Ex dgn family dia pun alhamdulillah tersangat happy, dan sehingga ke hari ini, walau apa yg telah terjadi... I always mendoakan them happy. Ada hikmah segalanya; mereka telah kembali bersatu bahagia sekeluarga. Syukur pada ilahi. Tentang hati or diri ini, am slowly recovering from it.. all that matters is that sy tumpang gembira that he's good and happy.! anyhow, dengan ini..., leave me alone on this chapter dear fren. Dah basi dah citer ni.. Phew!!! Peace out on this.

Alright next Chapter!
Am agak terganggu dgn citer "Anu.. dalam Botol." ALtho as promised and support, Boy.., adik dh tgk dah movie awak, tahniah dear Arja Lee, u did good! :) I enjoyed your acting.. p/s: tak sangka yang wan raja tu lak kawan kepada kawan saya now.. ehehe.. small world kan? anyhow, y i said earlier am a little terganggu.. Opps cos ternampak aurat wan raja. sebegitu rupa... nampaklah bentuk 'nonek' dia, kira berdosa tak kita yang melihat? hurm.. and also, perlu ke scene till that extend yg dipertontonkan , atas dasar nk mendidik viewer? but everything else is all good for me, no othe remarks, tahniah raja azmi and Khir rahman.

part yg sentuh hati i bila, watak dina talks about the matter of her heart. for she gave everything... so sad, similar feeling, "why do have to go, u make mistakes, but why do you have to go.." she then lost her heart in tht battle. next, was.. when love suddenly changes.. u didn't aspect watak akan muncul dalam diri insan yg you paling sayangi, watak bila dia benar2 ingin pergi, masa itu hati kita sgt hancur, walau tangisan mana pun, kita yang akan rebah, for dia telah lupa and in the end, all you know dia melangkah pergi dgn janjinya. and you left alone to forgive him, and in sadness you try moving on.. Wow, besar betul rupanya impak citer ni pada i.. touches me heart a bit lah.. anyhow, ini lah life, kisah sebenar kan? kita hanya manusia, dugaan hidup ini terlalu besar, allah sentiasa menduga, kesilapan dulu mungkin membuatkan kita lebih matang, lebih bahagia dan membuatkan kita menjadi insan yg lebih baik dari dulunya... cuma harap, kita harus berharap kita ini bukan tergolong dalam golongan syaitan, harap kita masih dapat diampunkan, salah kecil dan salah besar. amin. kerna "Salah yang paling sukar diampunkan, adalah salah di antara manusia."
So all the best Anu... dalam botol! Altho' remark kawan yg lain, bosannye citer ni.. ehehe! :) sham, ko mmg hampeh. for me, i like the cinematography & arahan, love kak ogy sebenarnye! :)

aite, hurm after a while, byk betul writing in one go.. yelah because i'll be away again. Bulan 5 ada shanghai Expo.. insyaallah ke sana.. keje maish byk di office. Next week pun pack work and classes. 24/7 busy, malam mungkin ada online FB.. Social Network itu penting, mendekatkan org jauh dan dekat! lebih2 lg dgn org kejiranan afghanistan. (pakistan le maksud i, dgr kabar bulan june mereka pulak dtg malaysia., actually they have been here.!!) ehehehe.. still, Thank you for asking about me, my new post, u helped ease my stress away! did this making me feel in love again? hurm, no lah belum sampai tahap itu! berbunga-bunga adalah, adanya kawan baru.. but i do rasa, dihargai again, from a guy fren! tu yg sweet .., lgpun lama sgt dah org office i ingat i lesbian.. lesbian yg cool & hot kowt? ehehehe :)


D truth, kpd close new fren/colleagues of mine... I was never a lesbian cuma am just keeping it low, single, am still Erwina! deep down, hati ini masih sama! :(

Aite, share ngn korang my latest fav; beside Maroon 5, Paul McD, Aerosmith, Pink, The Script, Daughtry, GIGI, i hargai lagu2 Maher Zain; close to me heart now;

Allahi Allah kiya karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam ussi ka liya karo.

Allah hee Allah…

Allahi Allah kiya karo
Dukh na kissi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam usi ka liya karo.

Allahi Allah…

Just like a sunrise can’t be denied
Oh, just like the river will find the sea
O Allah, You’re here and You’re always near
And I know without a doubt
That You always hear my prayer

Such ki raah pay chala karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam ussi ka liya karo.

Allah hee Allah..

Allah hee Allah kiya karo
Dukh naa kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam usi ka liya karo.

Allah hi Allah

So many bright stars
Like diamonds in the sky
Oh, it makes me wonder
How anyone can be blind
To all the signs so clear
Just open your eyes
And I know without a doubt
You will surly see the light

Aisa zulm na kiya karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam usi ka liya karo.

Allah hee Allah

Allah he Allah kiya karo
Dukh na kisi ko diya karo
Jo duniya ka malik hai
Naam ussi ka liya karo.

Allah Hi Allah Kiya Karo Dukh Na Kissi Ko Diya …