defying gravity...

tarik nafas panjang, breathe in breathe out... still a sigh*hurm ~ talks about me defying gravity... not that i don't believe in it, am absolutely am, just that am not quite there yet! ohh damn why o why is it so hard? feels really hard sumtimes... last week was hell of a work, well wait..., wasn't my every otha week hs been like that as well? come to think of it, indeed that is so very true! but at this juncture, I should be proud of myself for wut i couldn't imagine i had it in me, the will to work work work n no play, to visualize, to draw, the ability to create sumwhat called digital creative maybe? not the finest you'll see of course, definitely lah.. still raw, beginners stage... masih harap ada peluang belajar from greater power!!! master yoda of 3d out there yang free mungkin?? ehehehe!! hurm...finally kan? all these while dreaming of becoming a digital designer, now ada juga rezeki to at least cuba, syukur alhamdulillah... altho' day in day out... tersgtlah penat, as if there's no break at all! at tis point, have to do it, cos kena work both hands on website and presentation. 

Last monday, that very morning... jantung berdebar kuat. doa to god, may today's presentation be a good one. ada gk doa, hoping may the meeting be canceled! teruk kan? but soon the call came in, ma phone ring... it's showtime... terkumat kamit myself berdoa, getting out of my room carrying my cpu, heading straight to the conference room.. man, gila, the MD, called up all d head department to join that meeting. 10 ppl was in tht room if i'm not mistaken... Gelabah sungguh... connection to the projection screen plak lembap, even to start my pc was taking twice the time longer than usual... hurm, baru depa tau, animation, website, video shoot, photoshoot, and corporate design semua ada dalam cpu ni. tp rasanye big boss tetap tak heran! pundeks!!! ahahaha... sorry!!! sarcastically my german boss repeating, 'What is this taking so long? We don't have much time!'  again and again... ...dalam hati, bai sabar lah 'there's nothing i cud do about that, seriously, what u see is what u get'...  and so after it finally starts, phew... rasa nk pitam...but.. they love it! i think? yes, they love it... thank god, the words from the Darth Vader himself.... 'this is GOOD, but not VERY GOOD, but this is really GOOD! ... chop! bezanya? ape-apejelah, all i know, need to work on a litlle more until me get that VERY GOOD feedback! still syukur when he said... This is not rubbish!'... i still have it lingers in my head... syukur tak kena hamput Rubbish... dah pernah kena actually, first time propose dulu. Masalahnye, bawaklah saya naik helly and have my own view from the top maybe?... since the pictures were not even in the database... how am i suppose to visualize and draw it all back?? but, never should there be any excuses kan?  dia boss kita kuli... ahahaha! so now, feels sikit lega... slowly bersyukur dgn feedback yg overwhelming... alho' hampeh when the Prod Manager, Sacha W, that another very loud German dude, said that when watching my montage, it does seems to him like a drunken person watching it... siut! pastu ngata apa tah aku dlm German... nk je aku ckp perak! hangin je aku... ok fine, i admit it, it's a little laju, but hey that's what a montage usually is... if a montage is  rather too slow, then do not call it a montage please!!!!!!!! huh!!!... but anyhow, i've changed it dah, siap rabu i think?... n they love it very much now they said, hopefully the MD willlove it too tis time... he's coming back esok... mati anak beruang... another scary Monday!! ahaha... but us here, kerja is very professional, later after that... we will have a big laugh all together!! kalau aku malas layan, me tutup je my pintu... bukan x leh nampak... windows besar blakang gue.. 

My only concern now is that since after that presentation preview. MD tambah pulak... new idea, new chapter, he said i could definitely do it! he wanted me to animate the internal part.. now kecut perut balik, damn last nite I dah habis drawing dah... tapi me tertidur around 2am... ngantuk sgt bai! jaga waktu subuh today, itupun lewat, almost syuruk... aduh, still have to habiskan today... sempat ke ni? rasa mcm nk rehat layan melodi aje now... no F1 today kan? hehhee!! aduh... sigh sigh sigh! elok plak layan blogging tiba2... hampeh, lagi bazir masa... but tis always release me pain or stress, at least a bit... ohya, that meeting was ended with another great news for me lah hari tu... u know the website am working on as well.. them LOVE it... scripting cantek, navigation looks interesting, layout looks good, gambar edited n re-touched was beautifully done... this was the comments given lah, betul... syukur kan? bila mendengar feedback yang menaikkan semangat mcm ini... yelah maybe diorg pun risau, tgk aku ajer dh mcm zombie agaknya... gila, almost 500 pictures me cropped and edited tuh... all together at the same time, kejap-kejap cropped n retouched gambar, kejap2 export movie, export flash, and kejap-kejap masukkan information for web, kejap2 kena panggil video shoot/photoshoot.... Wina the robotic gal maybe!! dats why, when u see me out of the office laa ni, am all drained out... lagipun, me nk siapkan semua cepat lah... web i think sikit lagi habis lah.. just worried on animation.. asyik new inputs, new ideas... but always nk cepat later... Please ya'll, if u read this, pray that i dpt siapkan perfectly by this week. cos next week, u know i byk keje kan? kena postponed trip overseas... tapi, depa plak hantar Vicky from China to have training with me... tis coming 19th, i'll be training her on the website, mostly on scripting, development and layout setting... so now my senior colleague, barulah ada sedikit perasaan simpati, dia risau sikit, cos me banyak sgt keje, nk kena train a colleague from china lg lak tu.. or maybe sebenarnye dia risau cos dia nk cuti seminggu next week? hurm... ape2jela labu, pikir baik manusia kan? Anyhow..., bukan ke sepatutnya saya yg kena pi training,... now sudah tukar ka??? tapi takpe, as long as i cud do it.. am doing it, just doa sgt dpt selesai semua by the 25th of the month... cos later me wanna have a break, nk cuti... esp cos my sista's due date is round the corner, EDD sebenarnya 11 May 2010, same bday ngan maira... but usually kan baby either keluar awal 2 weeks or lewat kan? anyhow, hanya doakan both ibu and baby selamat.. by the way... baby now berat dah 2.9kg.. ehehehe! sweet... notty sgt dlm peyot says kakak! anyhow, wait for me kay guys... i'll try to cuti...

Ok adios lah, wanna kuar buy a ciggy n a coke, rehatkan my pc say about 20mins, later sambung keje balik.  dun worry lah.. gua bukan nk tgk melodi lah... ahahaha... signing off here for now k?... oh ya, lupa... I berkesempatan singgah ke pameran kedua Datuk A.Samad Said last friday, tak jadi main badminton ptg tu, merajuk diaorg yg lain... serious, boleh tak..? tak bercakap ngn i langsung masa diorg gerak balik!! hurm, next week sy join blk k? tak sempat pun nk upload a better picture of our previous games... kat pc office lg, later lah! So anyhow, i went straight to balai that evening, traffic jem, lama dh tak masuk KL... waited for mimie a while, thanks laling for the company... u're beautiful as always! altho' a little awkward  i felt tht nite.. oh maybe it is just me, but is all good! U KNOW SERIOUSLY, when i saw them artworks, it just melts me heart... how i just love a magnificent art pieces huh? soothing, therapeutic for me, cos mata yg terlalu penat ni, terasa segar sikit... and dgn bahasa Pak Samad yg tinggi tahap dewa tu, tetap juga aku curik2 cuba memahami line by line...mcm paham sgt, tapi still mencuba juga nih... and you know dahlah ramai audience attend that nite kan? lagilah!... but saya suka tulisan Hasnul.J...simple, relevant. Cuba memahami penulisan Rahmat.H, but humangai... tak bisa! still at the end of the nite, glad i came... I didn't actually catch any extended dessert of that evening, the poetry recital, performances... i was too tired, went off early, and fyi, tak beli lagi driving glass, now a little bad at driving waktu malam kn...serious, cos i could mengantuk easily dlm kete... a little bahaya, so jgn menyusahkan pengguna jalanraya yg lain, and jgn risaukan family lagi... so i balik awal... but still, tahniah DASS. Moga panjang umur, terima kasih atas contributions selama ini... Insan seni unggul!

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